on the account that I fucking hate you!!!
how am I to deal with this. I'm getting so tired of amber's fucking shit. I do so much for her and all I get is bullshit. we bought her like a million presents for christmas and I get attitude from her. what the hell? she got a new phone, she got more shit than I did for christmas. I got two things I asked for. and I know I should be greatful for everything I got (and I am) but amber is pushing me off a dangerous cliff and she's going to watch me fall and crush her if she pushes me too far. god I am soo fucking pissed off right now. I HATE DAN TOO! GOD DAMN DAN!!! stupid therapist I hate him.. its all his fucking fault. am I throwing a hissy fit? DAMMIT IT ALL TO HELL!!! I'm sick of this all.. I want it to rain POUR.. I want to hear the rain on the ceiling to drown out all the sound and things that amber is part of. she drives me so completely insane! what should I do I dont know what I to do anymore. I'm so lost inside the little world she created where everything revolves around her. I listen to her when she talks about all her little phone buddies but god damn her. she doesnt give a shit about me. I could die and she wouldnt know or care. I'm so sick of everyone CHRIS, AMBER, PRESTON, STEVEN, I FUCKING HATE THEM ALL.. they created this little group and I'm outside of it once again. damn it.. I just want to be free of it all.. please just give me rest.. I need it. no interuptions.. just rest.