For those left behind

[mysterious_sam]

It's hard.
It's hard to look back and see all of the energy invested in a broken friendship.
So many smiles
So many long talks about things I'd only tell you
So many walks arm in arm
So many hugs
So many late night phone calls
So much time wasted
So many tears
So much invested in you?
For what?
For you?
No.
Not anymore.
Not for you.

It's so hard to be here
So lonely sometimes
There's been so much time this past year to think
About the friendships that count
About the ones that don't
About what is important
About what that's not.

So many broken fucking promises
So many tears I cried that you never noticed
Only on your terms
On your time
But what about MY TIME?
What about me?

Convenience isn't a part of friendship.
I'd do anything for my true friends
They'd do the same for me.

So there you go, another year gone by
A handful of friends to show for it.
Friends that count.

Kitri
Annie
Lindsay
Kathryn
Rosemary
Sophie
(and a few others that have maintained friendships despite distance.)

People who are there even when they can't be.
That small handful makes all of the difference

This is for the ones left behind.
I'm sorry I wasted my time
I'm sorry I was a waste of yours.