Jennifer
You know. I have realized something. Everyone lies. We all think that we can do stuff and really we cant. I have got maybe 3 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours so i do admit i am bitchy. We all think we can handel the truth but really no one can. Once you get told something that may break you it usally does. I broke and it hurt like hell. Jen, I do love you, and I know everyone is laughing while I say this and I deserve it. But I do, and I dont want you to act like anyone else. Specilly him. If I wanted him I would be with him, but baby I want you. I miss you. I miss "lookingforlove" That is who you were when I first met you and that was when I fell. I miss the way you used to look at me, and the way you used to kiss me. I miss the way you use to touch me and be in awe over me. I miss the sweet little nothings you use to do. I did not see what I had b4 but I do now but it looks like I have lost it. Jen, I just want you to be you and no one else. I want you to be happy, I will do ANYTHING that makes you happy. I know I fucked up MANY times, but you know what? You never know what you have untill it is gone, and that was the first time you have actually been gone. And I am glad cuz it woke me up and made me see what I had. I want it back. I wish I wasn't sum dumb 16 year old but I will change. It is just hard to be a "27 year old" in a 16 year olds body. *wink*wink* jen You are the only one who will understand. I love that, you understand me. I love you.