Father
Dear Dad,
I appreciate our reconnection and as I have said numerous times I would like you to be a part of Vivian's life if you so choose. Although I have only seen you 3 or 4 times in the past year, that is more than the previous 3 or 4 years combined. I feel like we are moving forward. Maybe one day I will get invited to family functions where Carolyn is present. I think it is very rude to exclude me when she is the one with a problem. You know you have allowed this to go on with your wife and I for over 15 years! Isn't it time to tell her you have your first grandchild and would like to see her grow? Come on Dad... blood is thicker than water... you are in charge. I have wondered if you are just protecting me. That's what I'd like to think. She was so mean to me when I was younger and I'm sure you haven't forgotten that. I apologize for trying to kill myself. I take full responsibility for those actions. I did not know how to cope with my reality and wanted it to change.
I am not mad at anyone for the divorce from my Mom. However, I do think you should apologize to me for hitting her. You hit her in the face Dad, on more than one occasion, and I was there to see it. I remember hiding under my bed as a child at least once a week. And you know, I just continued to love you. Continued to want to be near you and know who you really are. As an adult I began to understand drugs and money were the cause of much torment for both of you for a few years. I forgive you. I wish I could really know you. I think it would great for both of us. You are so successful in business and I bet you could utilize some of those skills and apply them to a functional relationship with me.
I Love You
I appreciate our reconnection and as I have said numerous times I would like you to be a part of Vivian's life if you so choose. Although I have only seen you 3 or 4 times in the past year, that is more than the previous 3 or 4 years combined. I feel like we are moving forward. Maybe one day I will get invited to family functions where Carolyn is present. I think it is very rude to exclude me when she is the one with a problem. You know you have allowed this to go on with your wife and I for over 15 years! Isn't it time to tell her you have your first grandchild and would like to see her grow? Come on Dad... blood is thicker than water... you are in charge. I have wondered if you are just protecting me. That's what I'd like to think. She was so mean to me when I was younger and I'm sure you haven't forgotten that. I apologize for trying to kill myself. I take full responsibility for those actions. I did not know how to cope with my reality and wanted it to change.
I am not mad at anyone for the divorce from my Mom. However, I do think you should apologize to me for hitting her. You hit her in the face Dad, on more than one occasion, and I was there to see it. I remember hiding under my bed as a child at least once a week. And you know, I just continued to love you. Continued to want to be near you and know who you really are. As an adult I began to understand drugs and money were the cause of much torment for both of you for a few years. I forgive you. I wish I could really know you. I think it would great for both of us. You are so successful in business and I bet you could utilize some of those skills and apply them to a functional relationship with me.
I Love You