NO more baby
Im no longer pregnant!! but i guess i dont have time to sit around and be upset!!! i have so much going on in my life right now, it could have been from all the stress that i lost it!!??
So anyway, me and Ty are really not good, and i dont want us to pretend everything is ok, which is what he wants!! it shits me, he tells me that we will forget about all our problems and start again next week!! and he WANTS me to move in as soon as my parents get back from their trip, i cant even stay here one night with them, after not seeing them for 10 weeks, i have to pack up all my things and move back!!
I have been making up list of why i should go back, and the only thing thats good, is that he was with me when i was pregnant and he is Ethans "daddy"
Bad points: he drinks (maybe 3 days a week) i told him i cant date a drinker cuase of what happend to me when i was with my ex husband, NO SMOKING!!! he said he would quit becuase he loves me and wants to have a relationship with me.....that was over 17mths ago now!! and he still smokes!!! and keeps saying that he will quit but will only do it if i move back home NOW!! i want proof that he will quit!! thats what he had to do for at least 3 weeks!! before i come back home!!!
And him to REALLY stand up for me infront of his family, and not make me sit in the cornor to lick my wounds, to let me stand up for myself and not tell me to shut my mouth and not say anything back cause "im the big person" by not saying anything back!!
I hate his fucked up religous talks about how im not Chirstian so im going to hell and that upsets him, and i tell him im not making him change for me, so why should i believe in somehting i dont....i would only be faking it and then i would still go to HELL!!
Why would anyone go back to that?? seriously??
And part of our agreement was that i can be with other guys, and he can be with other girls!!! well i was and i told him, why ask if you dont want to know right?? well that was it!! he hated me im a cheater??!! WTF!!! i dont think so it was part of the whole agreement, so he has been going on about that for the last week.........mainly shit like....
I wanted to have sex with u in a car, but YOU WOULDNT!! and i want u to have spontaious sex with me BUT U WONT, blah blah blah, everything with him seems to revolve around sex and it shits me, he recons it's all in my head!!! i think we seriously need to see a counceller!!
And i prefer the guy i was with Ryan he is a sweet, and enjoys talking to me about everything and anything, he has 2 younger brothers who are NOT married have NO children and have NO girlfriends!!! He doesnt smoke never has, he drinks maybe once every 6mths, his parents are still together, he has a good paying job, has 3 cars??!! hehe he is a collector, has only a small debt $8000, where as ty has once again maxed out the credit card $3000 plus he has $14500 that he owes for his car and the last time he maxed out the credit card!!
I wouldnt start dating someone else if me and Ty broke up for at least 6mths, but i would contiune my friendship with Ryan!!!
what should i seriously do??
I hate most of Ty's family and wish death on his sister in law!!! Now he is saying that if i can get proof that his step-mum said things to the family that bridget had said then his dad is going to divorce her!!!?? how does that make me feel?? he said that ppl will think it wasnt my fault and that everything was her fault!!! but it's my name being dragged thru the dirt, and my cousin is dating her son!!! so seriously i will have to see her that there wedding and everything!! she will never be outta my life!!
ok i guess im not having a good day!!!
So anyway, me and Ty are really not good, and i dont want us to pretend everything is ok, which is what he wants!! it shits me, he tells me that we will forget about all our problems and start again next week!! and he WANTS me to move in as soon as my parents get back from their trip, i cant even stay here one night with them, after not seeing them for 10 weeks, i have to pack up all my things and move back!!
I have been making up list of why i should go back, and the only thing thats good, is that he was with me when i was pregnant and he is Ethans "daddy"
Bad points: he drinks (maybe 3 days a week) i told him i cant date a drinker cuase of what happend to me when i was with my ex husband, NO SMOKING!!! he said he would quit becuase he loves me and wants to have a relationship with me.....that was over 17mths ago now!! and he still smokes!!! and keeps saying that he will quit but will only do it if i move back home NOW!! i want proof that he will quit!! thats what he had to do for at least 3 weeks!! before i come back home!!!
And him to REALLY stand up for me infront of his family, and not make me sit in the cornor to lick my wounds, to let me stand up for myself and not tell me to shut my mouth and not say anything back cause "im the big person" by not saying anything back!!
I hate his fucked up religous talks about how im not Chirstian so im going to hell and that upsets him, and i tell him im not making him change for me, so why should i believe in somehting i dont....i would only be faking it and then i would still go to HELL!!
Why would anyone go back to that?? seriously??
And part of our agreement was that i can be with other guys, and he can be with other girls!!! well i was and i told him, why ask if you dont want to know right?? well that was it!! he hated me im a cheater??!! WTF!!! i dont think so it was part of the whole agreement, so he has been going on about that for the last week.........mainly shit like....
I wanted to have sex with u in a car, but YOU WOULDNT!! and i want u to have spontaious sex with me BUT U WONT, blah blah blah, everything with him seems to revolve around sex and it shits me, he recons it's all in my head!!! i think we seriously need to see a counceller!!
And i prefer the guy i was with Ryan he is a sweet, and enjoys talking to me about everything and anything, he has 2 younger brothers who are NOT married have NO children and have NO girlfriends!!! He doesnt smoke never has, he drinks maybe once every 6mths, his parents are still together, he has a good paying job, has 3 cars??!! hehe he is a collector, has only a small debt $8000, where as ty has once again maxed out the credit card $3000 plus he has $14500 that he owes for his car and the last time he maxed out the credit card!!
I wouldnt start dating someone else if me and Ty broke up for at least 6mths, but i would contiune my friendship with Ryan!!!
what should i seriously do??
I hate most of Ty's family and wish death on his sister in law!!! Now he is saying that if i can get proof that his step-mum said things to the family that bridget had said then his dad is going to divorce her!!!?? how does that make me feel?? he said that ppl will think it wasnt my fault and that everything was her fault!!! but it's my name being dragged thru the dirt, and my cousin is dating her son!!! so seriously i will have to see her that there wedding and everything!! she will never be outta my life!!
ok i guess im not having a good day!!!