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I have this unspoken (until now) tradition with myself where on the first day the sun is out, there are no clouds and it is warm enough I drive with the windows down and listen to Dar Williams' "As Cool As I Am" Live. That happened today. It made me feel amazing inside, as odd as that may sound. I drove all the way to Nashua to get things I could have easily gotten in Manchester just so I could keep driving with the windows down. The past week or so I have really felt the cold and gray on my heart. This feeling has been acccentuated by constantly feeling trapped when I am at work, going to a party all of my insides told me I shouldn't have gone to and the impending loss of two people I would rather not be losing. None of that stuff has gone away, but today helped me laugh despite it all. Spring cannot come soon enough.