Another day another depression.
I have a lot of regrets in my life and I have even more things I'd like to change. Oh dear God I would change probably most of the stupid things I did in High School... Not the least of which would be spending more time with my father and being there for my siblings. Yeah yeah school would be another thing I'd focus on more. But, the reason I bring this up is because I'm depressed. I'm not depressed because something bad happened and I'm not sad from a movie, I'm not even dwelling in the past. Everything just seems to be two or three shades darker tonight. I say this under florescent lighting mind you. I guess I can chalk another one to Clinical Depression if I wanted to but to be perfectly honest I don't. I find more and more these days that I don't want to find a reason for the problems I encounter, I just want to fix them. I don't want to point the finger at someone for something going wrong I just want to make it right and move on. I see the obvious flaws in that but such is life. I guess it is just another day another depression. At least it's not as bad as it was when I was in the Marines. yeah Pills were absolutely necessary back then. Now, not so much... usually though I wonder if I would be better off taking them again... I know my mothers would love that. Who knows maybe one day.