stalker returns

[mystcbrd]

I am sending both of you this letter. It has been more than a year since my world crashed down, in part because the two of you. I realize fully that he was more at fault than the two of you, but you are still at fault. I have tried to rebuild my life this past year, I have tried to look at a man who didn’t give a shit about me, our marriage or our

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[bamabytch2010]

I do believe deep down that he didnt cheat with you (I think he did with the other one, not you)..what I try to find and keep begging for in mostly the wrong ways, is the friendship. I dont mean to harass anyone or be mean to anyone, although I know you will never believe it but theres still just so many questions that swirls in my head about the friendship outside the club. That is what I am scared of. I cry almost everyday, I am trying to deal with it but without knowing about the friendship that was obviously there since you invited him to the going away party puts me in a bad position because I hear what he says and it doesnt make sense to me. I know your tried of dealing it and believe me so am I. I would love to wake up and not have this fear inside me anymore. All Im trying to do is figure out what went on, what kind of friendship there was, what lies he is still telling me so I can make my own decisions on what to do about the marriage. I left it alone for a long time hoping it would just go away and it eats at me until yesterday I just kinda snapped. I guess at this point I dont have any other choice but to back off and not bother you anymore since no one will open up to me about the friendship itself. Theres just some things that I would love to put to rest and move on. Not trying to cause anyone trouble or pain just desperately need answers that I almost crave to know. Its very hard to move on with a man who obviously doesnt love me yet I am forced to somehow make a mends and move on and have no clue or tools how to do that. Your right it is what it is...to you because you were there..its not that simple for me and I wish it was. I just wish you understood how bad this shit hurts and how scary it is for me. Im the villian here and all Im trying to do is get some closure to live a normal life and I just wanna know some things about him that Im not sure ill ever find out from him. Even things down to what he would talk about other than me. I dont know this man that I married Im afraid and to hear him tell it you and him were good friends and so it makes me wonder if you know him better than I do. And it sucks. I dont even understand why he would talk about me in a good way while hurting me. I just dont get anyone of this. I wish you could understand.

[mystcbrd]

we were not good friends. I never saw him out of the club. Ever. He discussed I should meet you and we all should hang out. It never happened as you know.

I know to well what it is to be betrayed. And i would never to that to anyone.

I wish you happiness and wellness.. but I cannot/ will not deal with this anymore.