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i don't know what's up lately. i seem to not understand when jessica says things like "i miss the old simple brittany in converse." and i say "you never knew me when i was like that!" and her say "yea, that's how i met you." i guess it doesn't make sense to me because i can't see much that has changed. i wish i could say well i'm comfortable how i am now so why can't you be..but i don't know if i am.
and i don't know why spending time with two of my best friends felt weird the other night. i feel like they hate me. until we just started laughing and goofing around taking pictures it was almost uncomfortable. i don't know how i've changed and whats going on really but my friends seem to know i guess. it's odd..
i am having fun hanging at leahs all the time. but by being here i'm leaving all my other friends out. and i do miss them. a lot. i haven't seen lisa in forever it seems. and i wont even to begin on aaron and brian and all them. but it's especially weird not seeing lisa and kirst and jessica all the time.
maybe things will be different when summer is over. i don't know. i don't know what this year will be like. i don't know how i will act or who will still be my friend. i don't want to lose any of my friends. not one of them. it's almost heartbreaking to think about.
i don't want to lose greg as a friend either. i don't know what's going on with him. he has said he would call before and hasn't..but i've never really been pissy to him about it. and i don't know why i said something last night. i would be angry with any of my friends who pretty much made plans with me and then ignored them. i've done it before. it's not cool but it happens. it just would have been nice if i would have gotten a phone call to let me know what's up. that's all. tell me we will do it another night. no big deal. but please don't blow me off and then although i send you text like i did don't continue to blow me off. just say oops and try not to do it again. aknowledge me please.
my mom told me she missed me tonight. and then she said i never see you, you don't love me anymore. that's sad. but even if i did sit around at home i wouldn't see her. we do things at different times. i don't know. it doesn't bother me at all but that made me feel bad when she said that. she doesn't really care though i'm sure. it's summer..it's our break from the twins. when school starts and they come back..or johnathan comes back at least..we will probably see too much of each other.
i feel like going over jakes soon. but make everyone be there. kirstie, jessica, lisa, aaron, brian, jeff, jessica g, kyle, michelle, and whoever else i'm not thinking of that i miss from there. et can even come. we can have a party :)
i think i'm finished.
and i don't know why spending time with two of my best friends felt weird the other night. i feel like they hate me. until we just started laughing and goofing around taking pictures it was almost uncomfortable. i don't know how i've changed and whats going on really but my friends seem to know i guess. it's odd..
i am having fun hanging at leahs all the time. but by being here i'm leaving all my other friends out. and i do miss them. a lot. i haven't seen lisa in forever it seems. and i wont even to begin on aaron and brian and all them. but it's especially weird not seeing lisa and kirst and jessica all the time.
maybe things will be different when summer is over. i don't know. i don't know what this year will be like. i don't know how i will act or who will still be my friend. i don't want to lose any of my friends. not one of them. it's almost heartbreaking to think about.
i don't want to lose greg as a friend either. i don't know what's going on with him. he has said he would call before and hasn't..but i've never really been pissy to him about it. and i don't know why i said something last night. i would be angry with any of my friends who pretty much made plans with me and then ignored them. i've done it before. it's not cool but it happens. it just would have been nice if i would have gotten a phone call to let me know what's up. that's all. tell me we will do it another night. no big deal. but please don't blow me off and then although i send you text like i did don't continue to blow me off. just say oops and try not to do it again. aknowledge me please.
my mom told me she missed me tonight. and then she said i never see you, you don't love me anymore. that's sad. but even if i did sit around at home i wouldn't see her. we do things at different times. i don't know. it doesn't bother me at all but that made me feel bad when she said that. she doesn't really care though i'm sure. it's summer..it's our break from the twins. when school starts and they come back..or johnathan comes back at least..we will probably see too much of each other.
i feel like going over jakes soon. but make everyone be there. kirstie, jessica, lisa, aaron, brian, jeff, jessica g, kyle, michelle, and whoever else i'm not thinking of that i miss from there. et can even come. we can have a party :)
i think i'm finished.