perhaps a broken heart...Okay, that's a little dramatic, but...
Okay, so i am slightly sad right now.
Not that i was expecting an email, but i was hoping for one. It's been 2 weeks since i last wrote him, and no response. I have to be logical. He doesn't actually have a computer...for all i know he is completely broke again, or maybe nothing has been going on to write about. But regardless, i am sad. I know i need to be realistic, but i can't help how i feel. I want to snuggle up next to him and just be cozy...especially today, it's freezing outside...
I need to stop being such a hopeless romantic. The likelihood of anything happening between us is soooo incredibly low that i shouldn't set myself up for a what isn't going to happen. Why did i connect with someone who lives across the world?
And to make things kind of bad, too, i have a supercrush on an irish bartender...go figure, right? Crushes are never bad but i feel guilty, like i'm not allowed to like anyone else, but that's ridiculous now, isn't it?
I am PLAGUED with thoughts of these two international hotties, i just don't know what to do with myself. I have been spending probably too much time (and money) at the Irish Oak (my fav bar and where my irishman works) and drinking entirely too much. I am surprised i am still living after saturday night's endeavors. Let's just say that those American guys like their shots and apparently looove spending lots of money on cute redheads such as myself. Should i be shocked? yeah, no.
I worked out today and thank god. I am beginning to soften like melting butter...i NEED to stop eating so much...and stop with the junkfood. GAAAH but ice cream is sooooo good!!!
Now i'm just babbling.
Not that i was expecting an email, but i was hoping for one. It's been 2 weeks since i last wrote him, and no response. I have to be logical. He doesn't actually have a computer...for all i know he is completely broke again, or maybe nothing has been going on to write about. But regardless, i am sad. I know i need to be realistic, but i can't help how i feel. I want to snuggle up next to him and just be cozy...especially today, it's freezing outside...
I need to stop being such a hopeless romantic. The likelihood of anything happening between us is soooo incredibly low that i shouldn't set myself up for a what isn't going to happen. Why did i connect with someone who lives across the world?
And to make things kind of bad, too, i have a supercrush on an irish bartender...go figure, right? Crushes are never bad but i feel guilty, like i'm not allowed to like anyone else, but that's ridiculous now, isn't it?
I am PLAGUED with thoughts of these two international hotties, i just don't know what to do with myself. I have been spending probably too much time (and money) at the Irish Oak (my fav bar and where my irishman works) and drinking entirely too much. I am surprised i am still living after saturday night's endeavors. Let's just say that those American guys like their shots and apparently looove spending lots of money on cute redheads such as myself. Should i be shocked? yeah, no.
I worked out today and thank god. I am beginning to soften like melting butter...i NEED to stop eating so much...and stop with the junkfood. GAAAH but ice cream is sooooo good!!!
Now i'm just babbling.