i know no one read this shit but w/e...
i really cant believe how everythings changed. I miss my friends & i dont wanna grow up. I guess growing up is forgetting anything you ever had with anyone you ever cared about and just suffering to move on. Growing up is just pain & lies. I want my best friends back. I want the reassurance that there's always someone there for me when I feel like my worlds falling apart. But of course, I've already lost all that. It's unbelievable how people can just change when they're throw into a different environment, and it's unbelievable how depressing this all is. And i miss the old group from middle school. And i miss ashleigh. And i miss how everything used to be.I find it so hard to tell anyone how painful it is to just go on everyday and not see everyone youre used to and to just accept that its gone. I just don't know what to say...growing up & trying to be "young adults" is just a load of fucking bullshit. I hate it when people are so fake and it's just so damn obvious. Does anyone ever care that I care?