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i feel at ease in his arms. i feel like thats where i'm supposed to be. i can't help but feel that what's going on is completely wrong, and that we were completely right. even if we fought alot. i know it was because we were afraid for eachother.. especially him being afraid for me. and afraid that i was going to leave him or find someone better. but i never wanted to do either. im just fooling myself. i feel like my heart is in my throat. whenever i hear any semi-sad song... any sad song at all, i choke. i lurked myspace today and went to the girls page who he kissed. shes fucking gorgous, a billion times prettier than me. tan, long brown hair, and brown eyes. it made me want to die. i don't even know why he came over. it's times likes these where i could really use some of my friends company. i really wish i saw shannon tonight.
im gonna go take a bath and STOP listening to elliott smith before i end up like him