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sometimes i truely just want to give up. i look at the people i've hurt and feel like a worthless pile of shit. but then i feel how theyve hurt me back and i kind of just want to stab something. i don't fucking understand life. what the fuck is the point of all this pain? i really just want to curl up into a ball right now and not do anything. i fucking hate this feeling. i feel like how i felt 5 years ago when i was in the hospital. as if there's nothing to look forward to right now... even though i know thats a lie, its just repeating itself in my mind. congratulations, you've succeeded in making my feel like the lowest scum of the earth. and i still can't hate you.
i don't think i could deal with it if i ever had to talk to him again after tonight. i think it's safe to say we fucked eachother up pretty good.
i feel fucking sick
i don't think i could deal with it if i ever had to talk to him again after tonight. i think it's safe to say we fucked eachother up pretty good.
i feel fucking sick