Figuered it out.. I hope.

[mysilvertears]

I don't actually like him. Since he is this guy, I can just see being in a heavy serious relationship.. (for crying out loud, he know what he wants one of his daughters to be names!) he symbolizes what I am afraid of. I always thought I never wanted it because I'm so afraid of it.. maybe.. now, I want it just a little, but I'm still really scared of it. This is where he comes in. He is that symbol, therefore, I'm attracted to him.

I'm still the worst thing in the world for him. Lets hope he realizes that..