Ummers... *shrugs*
Blah, I just read Terra's post about Justin. What a fucking ASSHOLE. I would have KILLED him! I mean, my parents would have been on my ass every fucking day after that! GEEAH!
Anyways, yah, so big surprise I ate today. It's all fucking Jenny's fault... I stole this note from her and told Darylann and she's like: "If you don't smarten the fuck up I'm going to call up Stephan tonight and tell him about how you're still not eating." FUCK! Anyways, fuck her. I have rowing tomorrow, but I'm going to try my best not to eat. Though, in all honesty, I may end up eating breakfast. Rowing is hardcore, and as much as I like to think I could I wouldn't be able to go an hour of straight excersise without food. >.<
So yea, this should be a relatively busy week so hopefully I shouldn't be too bad. I want to make a schedule for myself, though... you see, if I have something to look forward to I would be able to fast for longer than if I just sort of go as long as I can make it, because that inspires more binging too.
Okay, so what I'm thinking is no lunch whatsoever. Ever. Just cut that meal right out. So that leaves me with breakfast and dinner, which are much more difficult to get out of, but this is what I figure:
On an average school week, I can get away with no breakfast unless my dad makes porridge, which isn't very often. Maybe once every couple of weeks. But you want to know the awesome thing about porridge? If you eat it plain it doesn't have that many calories... (considering), but it digests extremely quickly, and I'll be hungry an hour after eating it. Why is that good, you ask? Because it gets my bodies metabolism going, and for the rest of the day I'm burning twice as many calories as I normally would. ^^ So yea, when I do eat breakfast, it will be porridge.
And as for dinner... okay, Thursday's are no worry. On weekends I can always get out of at least one meal, and during the week... urm... well, if my parents are forcing me to eat I have to keep the portions small. SEVERELY small. And try my best to take as long to eat as I can... and OD on the veggies, not the potatoes or anything like that! Wow, this is going to be a rather long entry, I just realised... oh well... bear with me...
Ugh, I have a headache. >.< Oh well. Okay, so yes... lack of food, here I come!
(And I see what Bri is trying to tell me with the whole healthy diet thing, but it just doesn't work, and I'm going to EXPLODE if I start to weigh much more. Like Brittany's like: oh, 155. *kills self* THAT'S HOW MUCH I WEIGH NORMALLY! *shoots self repeatedly* So yea, lots of work to be done... and I don't care about the headaches or stomach cramps. It's all going to be worth it. I'm not gonna die... I won't get to that point. I'm too much of a PIG. So yea, update later.
TR
Anyways, yah, so big surprise I ate today. It's all fucking Jenny's fault... I stole this note from her and told Darylann and she's like: "If you don't smarten the fuck up I'm going to call up Stephan tonight and tell him about how you're still not eating." FUCK! Anyways, fuck her. I have rowing tomorrow, but I'm going to try my best not to eat. Though, in all honesty, I may end up eating breakfast. Rowing is hardcore, and as much as I like to think I could I wouldn't be able to go an hour of straight excersise without food. >.<
So yea, this should be a relatively busy week so hopefully I shouldn't be too bad. I want to make a schedule for myself, though... you see, if I have something to look forward to I would be able to fast for longer than if I just sort of go as long as I can make it, because that inspires more binging too.
Okay, so what I'm thinking is no lunch whatsoever. Ever. Just cut that meal right out. So that leaves me with breakfast and dinner, which are much more difficult to get out of, but this is what I figure:
On an average school week, I can get away with no breakfast unless my dad makes porridge, which isn't very often. Maybe once every couple of weeks. But you want to know the awesome thing about porridge? If you eat it plain it doesn't have that many calories... (considering), but it digests extremely quickly, and I'll be hungry an hour after eating it. Why is that good, you ask? Because it gets my bodies metabolism going, and for the rest of the day I'm burning twice as many calories as I normally would. ^^ So yea, when I do eat breakfast, it will be porridge.
And as for dinner... okay, Thursday's are no worry. On weekends I can always get out of at least one meal, and during the week... urm... well, if my parents are forcing me to eat I have to keep the portions small. SEVERELY small. And try my best to take as long to eat as I can... and OD on the veggies, not the potatoes or anything like that! Wow, this is going to be a rather long entry, I just realised... oh well... bear with me...
Ugh, I have a headache. >.< Oh well. Okay, so yes... lack of food, here I come!
(And I see what Bri is trying to tell me with the whole healthy diet thing, but it just doesn't work, and I'm going to EXPLODE if I start to weigh much more. Like Brittany's like: oh, 155. *kills self* THAT'S HOW MUCH I WEIGH NORMALLY! *shoots self repeatedly* So yea, lots of work to be done... and I don't care about the headaches or stomach cramps. It's all going to be worth it. I'm not gonna die... I won't get to that point. I'm too much of a PIG. So yea, update later.
TR