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Wow, it had been quite awhile since I have updated.... I just now
realized how long its been; my last real entry mentions how I just got
my ear pierced, and it has already been those 12 weeks. Quite a
lot of crap has happened since then. Some good, some bad, most of
it is just what i said: crap.
I supposed I should mention the most important things that have happened over the past few months; though I don't really feel like it.
For the first time in my life, I have played the stereotypical teenage boy-crazed girl. Luckily, I believe that phase is over. I don't want to hurt anyone else. The feelings I express now are the feelings that are real.
Ray and I didn't last, if you looked at us it was obvious we weren't going to. I'd say about a week after my last post about him.
I then became intrested in Mike, something that actually means something. Mike and I have acknowledged that, as of yet, nothing can develop betwixt us. He is almost 19, I am 16, and I am really not allowed to see him. I do still see him yes, and I still do hae strong feelings for him, but as I told him; I can't keep pretending we can be together, I can't even think of it in those terms anymore. Mike is my great friend, for the time being, nothing more.
I learned that sometimes, friends should just be friends. I made a slight mistake, but fixed it quickly enough so that no damage was done. Its a better thing to have a long-term friendship; a lifelong one; then a short period of love.
I can't leave out Dan, but I don't really want to talk about that right now. I need Dan to be my friend, I'm sorry if I hurt you Dan but I can't right now.
Well... my mom is being a bitch again. I have too go.
I'm going to finish this hoping that how I feel is mutual. This is true, and I just want him to be happy....
goodbye
I supposed I should mention the most important things that have happened over the past few months; though I don't really feel like it.
For the first time in my life, I have played the stereotypical teenage boy-crazed girl. Luckily, I believe that phase is over. I don't want to hurt anyone else. The feelings I express now are the feelings that are real.
Ray and I didn't last, if you looked at us it was obvious we weren't going to. I'd say about a week after my last post about him.
I then became intrested in Mike, something that actually means something. Mike and I have acknowledged that, as of yet, nothing can develop betwixt us. He is almost 19, I am 16, and I am really not allowed to see him. I do still see him yes, and I still do hae strong feelings for him, but as I told him; I can't keep pretending we can be together, I can't even think of it in those terms anymore. Mike is my great friend, for the time being, nothing more.
I learned that sometimes, friends should just be friends. I made a slight mistake, but fixed it quickly enough so that no damage was done. Its a better thing to have a long-term friendship; a lifelong one; then a short period of love.
I can't leave out Dan, but I don't really want to talk about that right now. I need Dan to be my friend, I'm sorry if I hurt you Dan but I can't right now.
Well... my mom is being a bitch again. I have too go.
I'm going to finish this hoping that how I feel is mutual. This is true, and I just want him to be happy....
goodbye