Sometimes I just need to hear we are all going to be alright

[myshadeofpink]

So I have a really good idea for a music video.
It's to Yellowcard "breathing". And I have been thinking about it for like ever but never did it.
There are tons of things I have thought about doing and havent done.
I am going to start doing them
I already have actually. Starting with my writing.
Just need to start the novel.
Also, I want to take pictures on campus..next sunny day I swear I will.

I miss lots of things right now.
I miss my sister*
I miss Kalynn and wish she would answer her damn phone.
I miss predictability and certainty
I miss lack of responsibility

I am growing up. I have to do things on my own now and sometimes it feels good to be independent, like its just a little vacation. But I don't want to figure out my loan and scholarship shit, I don't want to make payments, I don't want to make my own appointments.
I like to have my own place, I like to cook my own food, I like to have something of my own, I like to have my own "bedtime", I like to be my own boss.
It's a constant trade-off.

Listen to : Yellowcard "Miles Apart"
If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find

We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart

Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard (life was not this hard)
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away

Love.