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*sigh*
so i feel so RIDICULOUS right now. im afraid that when brian sees me over thanksgiving that he will notice the same thing as me....absolutely no results what so ever. according to the scale i have lost about 13 pounds since the last time i saw him. i dont notice a difference even tho the scale says different. however, for me, that is not acceptable...i should have lost more. i should be healthier. i should have tried harder. i should have worked out more. i should be down to 165 instead of 172. it KILLS me!!
i wish i had the strength to get down to where i really wanna be at.....my goal of 160. im trying everything i can. i eat a well balanced diet and i eat smaller portions. im taking medicine to increase my metabolism. i work out 4x a week for 1-1.5 hours. i dont know what else i can do...
GRRRR. i just wish i had some better self esteem. feeling like shit. should be studying. fuck it - im really disappointed with myself!
im out!
so i feel so RIDICULOUS right now. im afraid that when brian sees me over thanksgiving that he will notice the same thing as me....absolutely no results what so ever. according to the scale i have lost about 13 pounds since the last time i saw him. i dont notice a difference even tho the scale says different. however, for me, that is not acceptable...i should have lost more. i should be healthier. i should have tried harder. i should have worked out more. i should be down to 165 instead of 172. it KILLS me!!
i wish i had the strength to get down to where i really wanna be at.....my goal of 160. im trying everything i can. i eat a well balanced diet and i eat smaller portions. im taking medicine to increase my metabolism. i work out 4x a week for 1-1.5 hours. i dont know what else i can do...
GRRRR. i just wish i had some better self esteem. feeling like shit. should be studying. fuck it - im really disappointed with myself!
im out!