Redemption Chapter Seventeen
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Dawn’s brothers and their families led the way with their visits to see the babies. Vangie’s brothers waited to visit Torie until once Alex was born which was okay with Sam and Dean since keeping things organized in the area of protection was easier when they had notice. Vangie’ mother had postponed her trip indefinitely because it seemed the reason she had wanted to come early was because she had other plans around the birth of her grand child. Vangie wasn’t surprised but Dean was worried about his wife, again. He was beside himself with anger at to they way she had been mistreated in her life, though from what he had heard her brothers did their best to watch over her. He smiled at her as she and Dawn went off to the kitchen to finish prepping the meal. Sam was on the floor playing with Torie as she kicked and made noises at him. Alex sat in Dean’s lap looking up at him as he kicked out wanting his father’s attention. Dean laid Alex on the sofa so he could tickle his tummy and play with him while they waited.
“Sam, have you seen any signs that we should be doing something about?” Dean asked as he put Alex on his shoulder then scooted down to the floor near Sam. Not a cozy scene either of the boys thought they would ever take part in.
“No, I would have let you know.”
“Just asking, man, don’t get your panties in a wad,” Dean teased.
His younger brother looked up from his daughter long enough to roll his eyes at him.
Dean leaned his back up against the sofa with his knees up as he sat Alex on his stomach before he picked up a rattle to shake in front of the little boy. Alex grabbed at the toy right away and a minute later had it in his mouth. Dean smiled, that his month old his son was advanced for his age in all of the basics, though the doctor warned them that things could still change at different stages. A baby could be advance in everything the first six months but then refuse to crawl or walk, which the doctor suggested, could be considered a personality issue like stubbornness or insecurity in their surroundings. He and Alex played for several more minutes before Sam spoke up again.
“Check this out.”
Dean pulled Alex to his chest as he leaned over Sam to see where he was pointing.
Sam grinned as he laid Torie on her back and a moment later, she flipped over as she bopped her head and looked around. Dean smiled but was a bit sad this that his small niece was already growing up. He never really understood that saying, “they grow so fast” until that moment.
“Yep. she is a keeper,” Dean teased as Sam looked expectantly at him.
“Yea, I believe she is,” Sam added as he picked up the little girl to hug her.
Dean and Alex left the living room to go check on the food.
“Give them time, Dean,” Sam yelled to Dean’s back, but of course, Dean ignored him.
However, as Dean stood about to step into the kitchen, he heard what they were saying and it disturbed him.
“But you are happy with Dean right?”
“Of course, but sometimes, he reminds me of Aaron,” Vangie said.
“He hits you?”
“No, nothing like that.”
“Well, Vangie, even Aaron had good points right?”
Dean didn’t wait to hear the answer but he stepped in the kitchen instead.
He still held Alex on his shoulder when he faced Dawn who was at the stove while Vangie who had her back to him stood at the kitchen counter.
“Hey, can I borrow my wife for a moment?”
“Sure,” Dawn said with a grin at her cousin in law.
Vangie took Alex from Dean’s arms as they headed toward the Den. She held the baby close to her, as she felt uncertain as to why Dean wanted to talk.
Once in the room she sat on the sofa with the baby before Dean chose where to sit. He needed a moment to formulate the question that was burning in his mind. Vangie squirmed a bit under his gaze; he must have heard what I said. Suddenly, he sat beside her and pulled both her and the baby into his arms. He held them only a moment before scooting away from them. Alex watched him while Vangie bit her lips.
“How am I like Aaron?” Dean asked into the silent room.
Vangie looked at her husband, why had she said that. It wasn’t an insult but the reason would shock Dean, she had not meant for him to hear her words.
“It wasn’t meant to be a bad thing,” she stuttered.
“You can tell me anything, I just want to know, maybe it’s something I can change.”
“What if you can’t then you will be upset with yourself, and I will feel worse for having brought it up.”
He knew she had a point. He also knew she had gotten closer to letting herself fully be alive and instead of numb while she was pregnant. He didn’t want her to go backward in the healing process. What was he doing to make things bad for her? He wanted her to just tell him.
“I am willing to take that chance, okay,” he said as Alex reached for him and he pulled the baby into his lap again.
He held his son against his chest, as he seemed sleepy.
Vangie smiled at them, “Okay, the thing that reminds me of Aaron with you is the desire to have sex often.”
“Oh…so Aaron had a hard time expressing himself also?”
“I thought when he hit me he expressed himself just fine,” Vangie said sadly.
“Let me rephrase, you know I have a hard time talking about feelings, right?”
“Yes.”
“When I make love to you it’s to show how much I love you; it’s not so much about the sex.”
Vangie should have known that she knew when she met Dean that he was different.
{Flashback-the night Vangie met Dean}
After Dean dropped her off at her car, she had phoned Dawn to tell her all about him.
“Vangie, are you still engaged to Aaron?”
“Of course I am, Dean is John’s son remember the guy that got us through all that madness with Dad and the werewolf.”
“The werewolf you mean our Uncle Paul?”
“Yes, I hate that he had to die.”
“He did it for you, Vangie; he killed your father because of what he had done to you.”
“I know and I will be forever grateful, I am glad Aunt Vera had a chance to move away from all the memories.”
“Now this Dean does he know you are engaged?”
“Yes, but I am just helping him with the case, Dawn, Aaron can never know about Dean not his name or anything.”
“Why?”
“Just promise, okay.”
“Of course.”
{End Flashback}
“How would I have known that? I assumed you just loved sex,” she said as she finally looked in Dean’s eyes.
“You wouldn’t know because I did not know how to explain, I am sorry that it’s so hard for me. But from this moment on please understand that being with you is my way of showing how very much I love you. Vangie, I don’t want anyone else, I wish I could have expressed it better but….”
“Maybe I was just waiting for the worse to happen, you have made me feel loved though I know I don’t deserve it, don’t doubt that,” she said as she leaned over to kiss him.
“I am the one who doesn’t deserve love but you love me any way, right?” he responded before the kiss.
He wanted to hear it, he craved the sound of those words though he didn’t know why, he knew she did the best she could at loving him but he hated to think she might only pleasing him to keep from being abused. Was she still in that cycle? At times he tested her because he felt he needed to know how to respond himself.
He raised his hand to run it over her soft cheek as their lips came together and he felt her jump but he didn’t mention it. Then why is she still uncertain?
As the clock on the kitchen wall chimed seven o’clock, Dawn finished the meal then went to find someone to eat it. In the living room, Sam sat on the sofa with Torie in his lap while he watched television.
“Hey Sweets, where is everyone?”
“Vangie not with you?”
“Dean stole her away about twenty minutes ago.”
“Well give them time they will here the rumbles of the tummies shortly I am sure,” Sam said as she leaned over to kiss Dawn as she took their sleepy daughter out of his lap.
They arrived in the kitchen to see Dean and Vangie put Alex into the portable crib nearest the kitchen. They watched over the babies constantly not a moment went by that they were not with the newborns. They brought in the second portable for Torie who was already dozing.
Everyone seemed quiet as they put together the table then organized the food to sit down to eat. Dawn wondered what the big discussion with Vangie and Dean had been as she watched them. Vangie’s face glowed and Dean seemed unusually subdued. Sam had no clue as to what was going on but hated the silence.
“So what’s up, you two have a fight or something?” he asked as he looked at his brother.
“No, nosy,” Dean grinned as he looked at Vangie.
Sam still wasn’t getting the idea that maybe it wasn’t his business.
“I know you didn’t make love, its way too soon,” Sam added as Dawn handed him the Dill chicken.
“Sam, will you get out of their business,” she insisted with a look at her oblivious husband.
“Oh, sorry, guys,” he said as he raised his eyebrows at Dawn.
Vangie bit her lip as she looked at Dean, “I do love you,” she said simply as she began her meal.
“I know,” Dean said as he smiled at her. She is getting better, I knew it, now we have to get the stupid Demon and things will be as they should be.
Sam grinned, I knew something was going on.
Just when everyone had began their meal there was a tap on the kitchen window. Dean looked up to see John and Missouri grinning at him.
“I think we may have to have Dad committed,” Dean said with a smile as he went to let them in.
Sam laughed, his Dad seemed so happy.
“Hey you two,” Dean said as he backed up to let them in the house.
“We made sure everything was still in tact and safe outside, how is everyone?” John said with his eyes all lit up.
“Sorry it’s so late, we uh got a bit lost after dark,” Missouri said as she gave John her disapproving look.
Sam smiled at her, “Hey,” he said as he engulfed her in a hug.
Missouri was the closest thing to a mother he remembered and no matter how much Dean felt strange about their Dad being with her Sam was still all for it. Missouri smiled to herself, she was glad the boys had taken a chance on love. She was also glad their father had given her a chance to help him deal with his issues.
After all the hugs and welcomes everyone sat down to eat, just before the sound of a little hungry mouth could be heard.
“It’s Alex, but I’ll watch him while you finish eating,” Dean said as he got up to get his son.
Vangie nodded as she continued her meal while she watched Dean leave the room to go change the baby first.
“They are both beautiful,” Missouri said when she put her plate in the sink.
“She wants to know if either of them have gifts,” John smiled as he looked defiantly at Missouri.
“John Winchester stop trying to read my mind that’s my job not yours,” she said as she pretended to be angry with him.
“Not lately,” John said under his breath.
Having her read his intimate thoughts was one thing but he could read her because she was female and it disconcerted her to no end. He loved giving her a hard time, she was his Mimi now and he wondered how they had lived so many years as friends without seeing the potential for romance.
“We think that Torie has some type of extra sensory ability but Dean hasn’t said anything to me about Alex,” Sam said as he looked at Vangie.
“Maybe he is just too young though he seems to remember things quickly for his age,” Vangie said as she put her plate in the new dishwasher.
“I am so glad we made that investment,” Dawn said as she pointed to the new appliance.
“Yeah with the kids it comes in handy, especially since some of us don’t understand how to help when its dish duty,” Vangie said in Dean’s direction when he came back in the room.
“Yeah well there are just different ways to help,” he teased as he handed Alex to John.
“From what I have heard none of your ways actually involve touching the dishes,” Sam teased his big brother as Dean stood over him before he smacked Sam on the head.
“Oh no, don’t start that,” Dawn said as Torie began to cry.
“All this excitement has the little ones eager to see what is going on,” Missouri said as she picked up the little girl.
Missouri could see Sam’s dimples in the little girls smile and it hit her hard that the babies were real; the Winchester boys had actually produced children. When John had first come to her looking for answers years ago she never thought any of them would survive and live in normalcy. She pushed back her tears as she hugged the little girl.
Vangie smiled at Missouri, “We know you secret I hope you can help us get rid of the demon.”
TBC
Dawn’s brothers and their families led the way with their visits to see the babies. Vangie’s brothers waited to visit Torie until once Alex was born which was okay with Sam and Dean since keeping things organized in the area of protection was easier when they had notice. Vangie’ mother had postponed her trip indefinitely because it seemed the reason she had wanted to come early was because she had other plans around the birth of her grand child. Vangie wasn’t surprised but Dean was worried about his wife, again. He was beside himself with anger at to they way she had been mistreated in her life, though from what he had heard her brothers did their best to watch over her. He smiled at her as she and Dawn went off to the kitchen to finish prepping the meal. Sam was on the floor playing with Torie as she kicked and made noises at him. Alex sat in Dean’s lap looking up at him as he kicked out wanting his father’s attention. Dean laid Alex on the sofa so he could tickle his tummy and play with him while they waited.
“Sam, have you seen any signs that we should be doing something about?” Dean asked as he put Alex on his shoulder then scooted down to the floor near Sam. Not a cozy scene either of the boys thought they would ever take part in.
“No, I would have let you know.”
“Just asking, man, don’t get your panties in a wad,” Dean teased.
His younger brother looked up from his daughter long enough to roll his eyes at him.
Dean leaned his back up against the sofa with his knees up as he sat Alex on his stomach before he picked up a rattle to shake in front of the little boy. Alex grabbed at the toy right away and a minute later had it in his mouth. Dean smiled, that his month old his son was advanced for his age in all of the basics, though the doctor warned them that things could still change at different stages. A baby could be advance in everything the first six months but then refuse to crawl or walk, which the doctor suggested, could be considered a personality issue like stubbornness or insecurity in their surroundings. He and Alex played for several more minutes before Sam spoke up again.
“Check this out.”
Dean pulled Alex to his chest as he leaned over Sam to see where he was pointing.
Sam grinned as he laid Torie on her back and a moment later, she flipped over as she bopped her head and looked around. Dean smiled but was a bit sad this that his small niece was already growing up. He never really understood that saying, “they grow so fast” until that moment.
“Yep. she is a keeper,” Dean teased as Sam looked expectantly at him.
“Yea, I believe she is,” Sam added as he picked up the little girl to hug her.
Dean and Alex left the living room to go check on the food.
“Give them time, Dean,” Sam yelled to Dean’s back, but of course, Dean ignored him.
However, as Dean stood about to step into the kitchen, he heard what they were saying and it disturbed him.
“But you are happy with Dean right?”
“Of course, but sometimes, he reminds me of Aaron,” Vangie said.
“He hits you?”
“No, nothing like that.”
“Well, Vangie, even Aaron had good points right?”
Dean didn’t wait to hear the answer but he stepped in the kitchen instead.
He still held Alex on his shoulder when he faced Dawn who was at the stove while Vangie who had her back to him stood at the kitchen counter.
“Hey, can I borrow my wife for a moment?”
“Sure,” Dawn said with a grin at her cousin in law.
Vangie took Alex from Dean’s arms as they headed toward the Den. She held the baby close to her, as she felt uncertain as to why Dean wanted to talk.
Once in the room she sat on the sofa with the baby before Dean chose where to sit. He needed a moment to formulate the question that was burning in his mind. Vangie squirmed a bit under his gaze; he must have heard what I said. Suddenly, he sat beside her and pulled both her and the baby into his arms. He held them only a moment before scooting away from them. Alex watched him while Vangie bit her lips.
“How am I like Aaron?” Dean asked into the silent room.
Vangie looked at her husband, why had she said that. It wasn’t an insult but the reason would shock Dean, she had not meant for him to hear her words.
“It wasn’t meant to be a bad thing,” she stuttered.
“You can tell me anything, I just want to know, maybe it’s something I can change.”
“What if you can’t then you will be upset with yourself, and I will feel worse for having brought it up.”
He knew she had a point. He also knew she had gotten closer to letting herself fully be alive and instead of numb while she was pregnant. He didn’t want her to go backward in the healing process. What was he doing to make things bad for her? He wanted her to just tell him.
“I am willing to take that chance, okay,” he said as Alex reached for him and he pulled the baby into his lap again.
He held his son against his chest, as he seemed sleepy.
Vangie smiled at them, “Okay, the thing that reminds me of Aaron with you is the desire to have sex often.”
“Oh…so Aaron had a hard time expressing himself also?”
“I thought when he hit me he expressed himself just fine,” Vangie said sadly.
“Let me rephrase, you know I have a hard time talking about feelings, right?”
“Yes.”
“When I make love to you it’s to show how much I love you; it’s not so much about the sex.”
Vangie should have known that she knew when she met Dean that he was different.
{Flashback-the night Vangie met Dean}
After Dean dropped her off at her car, she had phoned Dawn to tell her all about him.
“Vangie, are you still engaged to Aaron?”
“Of course I am, Dean is John’s son remember the guy that got us through all that madness with Dad and the werewolf.”
“The werewolf you mean our Uncle Paul?”
“Yes, I hate that he had to die.”
“He did it for you, Vangie; he killed your father because of what he had done to you.”
“I know and I will be forever grateful, I am glad Aunt Vera had a chance to move away from all the memories.”
“Now this Dean does he know you are engaged?”
“Yes, but I am just helping him with the case, Dawn, Aaron can never know about Dean not his name or anything.”
“Why?”
“Just promise, okay.”
“Of course.”
{End Flashback}
“How would I have known that? I assumed you just loved sex,” she said as she finally looked in Dean’s eyes.
“You wouldn’t know because I did not know how to explain, I am sorry that it’s so hard for me. But from this moment on please understand that being with you is my way of showing how very much I love you. Vangie, I don’t want anyone else, I wish I could have expressed it better but….”
“Maybe I was just waiting for the worse to happen, you have made me feel loved though I know I don’t deserve it, don’t doubt that,” she said as she leaned over to kiss him.
“I am the one who doesn’t deserve love but you love me any way, right?” he responded before the kiss.
He wanted to hear it, he craved the sound of those words though he didn’t know why, he knew she did the best she could at loving him but he hated to think she might only pleasing him to keep from being abused. Was she still in that cycle? At times he tested her because he felt he needed to know how to respond himself.
He raised his hand to run it over her soft cheek as their lips came together and he felt her jump but he didn’t mention it. Then why is she still uncertain?
As the clock on the kitchen wall chimed seven o’clock, Dawn finished the meal then went to find someone to eat it. In the living room, Sam sat on the sofa with Torie in his lap while he watched television.
“Hey Sweets, where is everyone?”
“Vangie not with you?”
“Dean stole her away about twenty minutes ago.”
“Well give them time they will here the rumbles of the tummies shortly I am sure,” Sam said as she leaned over to kiss Dawn as she took their sleepy daughter out of his lap.
They arrived in the kitchen to see Dean and Vangie put Alex into the portable crib nearest the kitchen. They watched over the babies constantly not a moment went by that they were not with the newborns. They brought in the second portable for Torie who was already dozing.
Everyone seemed quiet as they put together the table then organized the food to sit down to eat. Dawn wondered what the big discussion with Vangie and Dean had been as she watched them. Vangie’s face glowed and Dean seemed unusually subdued. Sam had no clue as to what was going on but hated the silence.
“So what’s up, you two have a fight or something?” he asked as he looked at his brother.
“No, nosy,” Dean grinned as he looked at Vangie.
Sam still wasn’t getting the idea that maybe it wasn’t his business.
“I know you didn’t make love, its way too soon,” Sam added as Dawn handed him the Dill chicken.
“Sam, will you get out of their business,” she insisted with a look at her oblivious husband.
“Oh, sorry, guys,” he said as he raised his eyebrows at Dawn.
Vangie bit her lip as she looked at Dean, “I do love you,” she said simply as she began her meal.
“I know,” Dean said as he smiled at her. She is getting better, I knew it, now we have to get the stupid Demon and things will be as they should be.
Sam grinned, I knew something was going on.
Just when everyone had began their meal there was a tap on the kitchen window. Dean looked up to see John and Missouri grinning at him.
“I think we may have to have Dad committed,” Dean said with a smile as he went to let them in.
Sam laughed, his Dad seemed so happy.
“Hey you two,” Dean said as he backed up to let them in the house.
“We made sure everything was still in tact and safe outside, how is everyone?” John said with his eyes all lit up.
“Sorry it’s so late, we uh got a bit lost after dark,” Missouri said as she gave John her disapproving look.
Sam smiled at her, “Hey,” he said as he engulfed her in a hug.
Missouri was the closest thing to a mother he remembered and no matter how much Dean felt strange about their Dad being with her Sam was still all for it. Missouri smiled to herself, she was glad the boys had taken a chance on love. She was also glad their father had given her a chance to help him deal with his issues.
After all the hugs and welcomes everyone sat down to eat, just before the sound of a little hungry mouth could be heard.
“It’s Alex, but I’ll watch him while you finish eating,” Dean said as he got up to get his son.
Vangie nodded as she continued her meal while she watched Dean leave the room to go change the baby first.
“They are both beautiful,” Missouri said when she put her plate in the sink.
“She wants to know if either of them have gifts,” John smiled as he looked defiantly at Missouri.
“John Winchester stop trying to read my mind that’s my job not yours,” she said as she pretended to be angry with him.
“Not lately,” John said under his breath.
Having her read his intimate thoughts was one thing but he could read her because she was female and it disconcerted her to no end. He loved giving her a hard time, she was his Mimi now and he wondered how they had lived so many years as friends without seeing the potential for romance.
“We think that Torie has some type of extra sensory ability but Dean hasn’t said anything to me about Alex,” Sam said as he looked at Vangie.
“Maybe he is just too young though he seems to remember things quickly for his age,” Vangie said as she put her plate in the new dishwasher.
“I am so glad we made that investment,” Dawn said as she pointed to the new appliance.
“Yeah with the kids it comes in handy, especially since some of us don’t understand how to help when its dish duty,” Vangie said in Dean’s direction when he came back in the room.
“Yeah well there are just different ways to help,” he teased as he handed Alex to John.
“From what I have heard none of your ways actually involve touching the dishes,” Sam teased his big brother as Dean stood over him before he smacked Sam on the head.
“Oh no, don’t start that,” Dawn said as Torie began to cry.
“All this excitement has the little ones eager to see what is going on,” Missouri said as she picked up the little girl.
Missouri could see Sam’s dimples in the little girls smile and it hit her hard that the babies were real; the Winchester boys had actually produced children. When John had first come to her looking for answers years ago she never thought any of them would survive and live in normalcy. She pushed back her tears as she hugged the little girl.
Vangie smiled at Missouri, “We know you secret I hope you can help us get rid of the demon.”
TBC