update
so life is bullshit. and shit happends.
so I have been living in a shelter for three weeks and they kicked me out. I am trying to get into the TLP (apartment buildings in Lewiston) My new bestest friend in the whole worlds name is Elizabeth and I miss her ass like crazyyy.
So I went back to live at Jess's. Partents didn't care. then all of a sudden police were called and they came over to Jess's. I was grochrie shopping. but when I got back my dad came and got me took me home and there were the police. they handcuffed me and took me to the hospitul. fuckin shittty. after sitting in the pshycoward for 4 hours they came to the conclusion that I am not fucked up and pshyco my parents are just fucking idiots (go figure) so I went home to my dads. went to school the next day and things are pretty much normal. I gotta find a place to live that is acceptable to DHS and my parents. Fuck.
I am dropping out of high school very soon, and probbaly in April moving to Camden Maine for 6 months to the Camden Community School to get my deploma. I miss chillin with my sopo friends soo much. things arnt the same cause I've been gone for a while now. it really fucking sucks too. shit happends.
I hate it when there is something in my life that I can do nothing about but wish and would do anything if I could. it makes me so sad. I hope one day things turn out okay. I ahve a feeling it will. but I'm so scared for this person right now. and it kills me that I even still care. and it scares me that I actually have an emotion, expecially since I have been out of my mind and emotionless for a while now. Shit has hit me pretty hard.
see what being sober for 48 hours can do to you. its fucking amazing.
not that I quit. just havent done anything. and I actually for the first time in forever sat down and cried. cried about my life and my loses. things I didn't and mentally cound't give a fuck about before. it felt kind of good to be back in my own head.
wont last long.
and the scareyest thing is...
I think I am only trying to be just like you...
so I have been living in a shelter for three weeks and they kicked me out. I am trying to get into the TLP (apartment buildings in Lewiston) My new bestest friend in the whole worlds name is Elizabeth and I miss her ass like crazyyy.
So I went back to live at Jess's. Partents didn't care. then all of a sudden police were called and they came over to Jess's. I was grochrie shopping. but when I got back my dad came and got me took me home and there were the police. they handcuffed me and took me to the hospitul. fuckin shittty. after sitting in the pshycoward for 4 hours they came to the conclusion that I am not fucked up and pshyco my parents are just fucking idiots (go figure) so I went home to my dads. went to school the next day and things are pretty much normal. I gotta find a place to live that is acceptable to DHS and my parents. Fuck.
I am dropping out of high school very soon, and probbaly in April moving to Camden Maine for 6 months to the Camden Community School to get my deploma. I miss chillin with my sopo friends soo much. things arnt the same cause I've been gone for a while now. it really fucking sucks too. shit happends.
I hate it when there is something in my life that I can do nothing about but wish and would do anything if I could. it makes me so sad. I hope one day things turn out okay. I ahve a feeling it will. but I'm so scared for this person right now. and it kills me that I even still care. and it scares me that I actually have an emotion, expecially since I have been out of my mind and emotionless for a while now. Shit has hit me pretty hard.
see what being sober for 48 hours can do to you. its fucking amazing.
not that I quit. just havent done anything. and I actually for the first time in forever sat down and cried. cried about my life and my loses. things I didn't and mentally cound't give a fuck about before. it felt kind of good to be back in my own head.
wont last long.
and the scareyest thing is...
I think I am only trying to be just like you...