Moving

[mysecretloss]

I was thinking about moving away from Charleston the other day. There really isn't much here for me except my mother and right now things are rocky. That's why I moved out of the house, we were fighting too much. My mother and I used to be so close too and it's a shame that we're barely talking to each other. I miss being mommy's little girl and being tended to. At the time I didn't realize how lucky I was, I had a freaking silver spoon in my mouth for 20 years. Now I'm on my own and I miss the feeling of family around me. My mother has five sisters, scattered around the south east. If I move, it will probably be towards Columbia or Rock Hill. I have family near both of those cities so I shouldn't feel so alone. If I move to Rock Hill I will be near a metropolitan type city and people are usually thinner there, it'll be motivation for me to lose weight. Moving will also be a way for me to start anew. I need to. I need to get out of this rut that I'm in, I refuse to continue living my life that way.

I want to start a new(er) life, I want to be skinny, I want to be beautiful, I want to be loved.