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[myscuri]

the train just went by here...
if i were home...im sure that in a few id be hearing it. but im not.
if i were home...id have the courage to cry. but im not.
if i were home...i could talk with someone who would pretend to care. but im not.
if i were home...i could put something on that may help me feel better about how i look. but im not
if i were home...i could take something to easy my physical pain. but im not
if i were home...id probably be in some kind of trouble. but im not.

instead im sitting here...no longer hearing the train...too scared to cry...not feeling sexy...physically in pain...not talking to someone who would at least PRETEND to care.
.....well at least im not in trouble.

i want to be at home