Valentine's Day
No other holiday causes such mixed emotions, such strong and volotile emotions as Valentine's Day. Kev asked me today to think about whether or not I wanted to mark the day. Believe it or not, I've been thinking about it for a long while. I've never been a hearts and flowers girl, but I had hoped for some trinket. But when he asked me like that, I began to think, really think about it. When was the last time I had a "Happy" Valentine's Day? I thought and thought and thought some more. Then I realised something, outside of the memories from when I was a very little girl and my dad sent flowers for me along with my mum's, there's only been one good Valentine's Day. *smiles* That was when I was dating Troy. I remember that day quite well. We went to Olive Garden for dinner then we returned to the dorm where there was a dance downstairs. Then he gave me some beautiful roses and the most adorable persian cat...stuffed....animal. Heavens know I hate cats, but I loved that stuffed cat. Even when I was married, I never received anything for Valentine's Day. No dinners out, no cards, no hearts, no flowers....nothing. And after that ended, the only time I received a card was a handmade card from Lenny. So taking in all the years I've been old enough to notice and care about this holiday, it's been more bad than good. No wonder I don't know what to do about it this year. I told him not to worry about it this year cos I'd honestly not like to jinx it. On the one hand, I'd like something, even if it's merely a card, but on the other hand, my experience has taught me that no good comes of this day. I know he cares. He shows and tells me every day. Do I really need something extra for this one day? I'll be sending him a card and that's all cos I was the one who did say after all not to worry about marking the occasion. I plan to send only 2 other cards....one to dear, sweet Lenny, who's still sweating it out on Parris Island and the other to Stephan who just needs to be remembered. ^_^