Last night
So many thoughts running through my head right now. It's so hard for me to sort them all out. Kev woke early this morning and changed the course of my thoughts. He woke cos he'd been dreaming about Laura. He wouldn't tell me what the dream was about, only that he wanted to forget her and move on. But that's never so easy as we wish it was. I know she'll always have some small part of his heart, she was after all his first love. First loves are always there. We never forget them. I never forgot mine...or my first heartbreak.
I wish on some level to know what he dreamt. But on another, I really would rather not know. It's just this damn insatible curiosity that drives me to want to know. It's going to kill me until I can push this far out of my mind. Right now I am torn between the desire to shed a few tears and the urge to...I don't rightly know, but something else. I love him so very much and I know he loves me...I can hear it in his voice every time we talk.
There was so much more I wanted to talk about, but this has pushed everything out of my head. My desire to talk to him, comfort him and love him right now is making it difficult to concentrate on what I should like to write in my journal. Mayhaps I'll come back and either edit this one or start another, but right now....he's my first priority.
I wish on some level to know what he dreamt. But on another, I really would rather not know. It's just this damn insatible curiosity that drives me to want to know. It's going to kill me until I can push this far out of my mind. Right now I am torn between the desire to shed a few tears and the urge to...I don't rightly know, but something else. I love him so very much and I know he loves me...I can hear it in his voice every time we talk.
There was so much more I wanted to talk about, but this has pushed everything out of my head. My desire to talk to him, comfort him and love him right now is making it difficult to concentrate on what I should like to write in my journal. Mayhaps I'll come back and either edit this one or start another, but right now....he's my first priority.