guess it's the end...
Oh god, I feel so, so bad… hadn’t felt that bad in a VERY long time, if ever. Defo don’t remember crying for 14 hours ….
It kinda sucks having what you love being torn away from you like this - pointless and without a reason.
Call me a drama queen, at this point I don’t really care. I’ve been crying for 14 hours yesterday. Not in a row, but you know, breaking down in the middle of some stupid meetings at work and having to go to the bathroom to wipe away the tears and fix the make up was…. well, weird. And it wouldn’t be exaggeration if I say that this very moment I hate The Vampire Diaries (writers and creators) with passion.
Yes, I’m not 12, and yes, it’s just a TV show, I don’t care. My life had been extremely stressful since last October when I found out that the company I worked for would be sold. The whole process was a nightmare, and 3 weeks ago my new boss had arrived, and it got so much worse. No, he is fine so far, and he seems to be nice, so I hope we’ll be fine. But everything changed, the whole concept, my duties, everything. I wasn’t that involved in the process before, and now I have to learn a lot, and learn it fast, and 24 hours is never enough. I was physically and emotionally exhausted lately. Like, A LOT! I was close to breaking down a few times but, well, I managed…
And then there comes TVD. It was my safe haven, my escape. I could have been on the verge of tears in the office but I always knew I’d come back home and watch it, and it would take my mind away and I’d feel better. I don’t care if it is pathetic or miserable. It was my small world that meant a lot. If anything, having a TV show to comfort you is better than drinking or pills, or whatever there is to do the job.Hey, everyone is coping as best they can!
So, I was getting ready to watch the show when I get a DM from my friend from Canada - because they have it screening one time earlier than US - where she told me Jenna was killed. Jenna was killed - I feel surreal writing it, and there is a huge case of denial going on here - I refuse to accept it. It can’t be true!! They might have as well killed me personally - which I would most likely be grateful for right now. In the end I couldn’t bring myself to watch it. I just started sobbing like crazy because it just hurt so much.
Sara Canning is amazing actress, I have no words to describe how much I love her and how talented she is. The very thought of Jenna being majorly underappreciated and underused on TVD is killing me. There were just so, so many ways of making her involved, of giving her a plot line and making hell of a character out of her. In the last few episodes Sara proved she’s capable of being beyond awesome! Funny fact is - a lot of people love Jenna, some didn’t care, but I have never ever met a fan who hated her or felt anything truly negative. She was unique like that. And honestly, she was a highlight and sunshine of this show, every single scene with her brought so much! She was sweet, caring, lovely, hilarious, and she tried so hard to make things right!!
She didn’t ask for any of that - for her sister’s death, for having to take care of the kids, for having to deal with all the crap that came along her way - but she’d accepted it and made the best out of it, and she did it with a smile. She did all she could possibly do to make it better for Elena and Jeremy. She was 25! *god, I’m 25, and I cannot keep goldfish - or even plants - alive. I would honestly consider my life worthwhile if I were half as good as Jenna. Sorry for side note*
I was thinking about all of that yesterday, and it somehow turned out that I'll quit the show not because they killed Jenna - although that alone could be a good reason. I'll quit it because the TV show is supposed to be entertaining, good must win over evil. When it's the other way around - well, I have enough of that in my life :S What’s the point of brining even more stress instead of making it better? I am not going to say “I wish they killed […] instead” if only because I would never want any other hardcore fans to go through what I’m going through.
Also, I am going to stop watching it because they don’t care about us, or about the characters they created. They only care about useless twists, shock effects and about proving the point - no one is safe, anyone can die, it’s a vampire show. Well, screw you guys, because I wasn’t investing in the character for 2 fucking seasons to be - “oh well, let’s see what else you’ve got for us”. For heaven’s sake, why KILL???? If you don’t need the character - send him/her somewhere! Send them to Narnia or to another dimension, just DON’T KILL!!! There were so many pointless deaths on this show that could have been escaped! God, I think they misinterpret the concept of a vampire show - bloody doesn’t mean everyone should die!! You know what? I don’t care about shock effects!! If you can’t find another way to keep the audience interested - you SUCK!
I’m numb now. I was so emotional that it probably burned me on the inside and I stopped feeling….
It’s almost surreal to think that just a few weeks ago I honestly thought that Alaric being possessed by Klaus was the worst thing that could have happened to the show. Then a week ago I was like - they can’t turn Jenna, we need Jalaric babies! Right now-hell, I’d give anything to have Alaric possessed by Klaus and evil vampire Jenna - just so that there was hope! Just so that I wouldn’t feel a lump in my throat every time I see their scenes/photos.
And right now I’m going to be a total selfish, egoistic, immature bitch - and deep inside I probably hate it, but not really - but I know I would take Jenna’s death so much easier if both she and Alaric died. I would cry buckets, I would drown myself in fanfics and fan-videos. But eventually, they’d be one memory for me. Don’t get me wrong, Alaric was the main reason I watched the show. Overall ship wars and obsessions get annoying. I preferred my little Jalaric world that was peaceful and cozy. And if they actually killed Alaric, I would be even more devastated - if possible - and I would hate them even more than now. But I’d know they’d be together. It would make it easier. They didn’t even say goodbye!
That was all they've got in 2x20 when she was damn understanding and forgiving because she saw how fragile their lives were and how easy it was to lose everyone she loved
If by any chance the writers decided to kill Jenna off only to bring in Meredith (Alaric’s gf from TVD books) - lame could never cover it. Never. It’s one of the reasons I cannot possibly stay and keep watching it - I LOVE Alaric and I wish the best to him, but selfishly, I would never be capable of watching him move on with someone else. He and Jenna were true soul mates, they were meant to be together, and this stupid show ruined it.
Also, I thought it would be easier for me if it was Sara’s decision. If she had tons of projects on hold and being semi-regular on the TV show was holding her back, and she’d decided to move on - I would totally understand that (read part about Jenna being hugely underused and underappreciated). But it turned out that it wasn’t her decision. No. This totally pointless move was on TVD.
Speaking of pointless, did you notice that Jenna’s death didn’t do any good? They are still in shit, in a very deep shit. I know she couldn’t have run and left Elena because she was amazing like that and she loved Elena too much, and it was her way of making it right. And she did her best to save her. Then why the hell didn’t they find a way to save Jenna??? Why does everyone have to die to save Elena??? She wanted to die from the start - kill her! She’s the main character, she’d never die for good. No, they preferred to turn yet another Alaric’s woman into a vampire and kill her (there’s not enough therapy in the world for this guy now). Klaus is still on the loose, Elena and Jeremy had lost ALL of their possible family members, and - what now, again?
“Let’s endanger her millions of times by keeping her in the dark, and then let’s tell her everything and kill her two days later” - awesome!! I love the train of their thought - feel sarcasm here,
Yes, I remember about the part where I promised not to say anything about my death wish list, but I will never get over the fact that Bonnie could have saved her and she didn’t. She could have fucking saved Jenna and Stefan didn’t let her!!! *I better not start on any of that*
I honestly don’t know what I am going to do now, what with all this reality thrown in my face and me not having a way to escape it. I feel horrible, empty and dead. And yes, I know it’s just a TV show, but my pretty lame life consists only of my job and this damn show. Well, only of job now. TVD meant a lot. It always will on some level. I just really want to know how to turn it all off now because it’s hard, and it hurts, and I want to stop feeling altogether. I want to stop breaking down every time I see the photos or read the comments.
So, for now, TVD ended for me sometime in the middle of 2x20, after Ric and Jenna got back together. 2x21 is something else, something wrong. I want to stay in denial forever
^^All of that are my thoughts, feelings and opinions. Most of them pretty incoherent, but then so am I. You don’t have to see them my way or agree. They are not debatable, I just didn’t want to spam my twitter with all of that.
That said, I will try to focus on the real life for a little while and maybe make some use of it.
Picspam in loving memory of Jenna Sommers (most not mine)
This is how it should have ended:
Can you even imagine the show without her??
And the saddest of them all - first meeting and last :'(((
It kinda sucks having what you love being torn away from you like this - pointless and without a reason.
Call me a drama queen, at this point I don’t really care. I’ve been crying for 14 hours yesterday. Not in a row, but you know, breaking down in the middle of some stupid meetings at work and having to go to the bathroom to wipe away the tears and fix the make up was…. well, weird. And it wouldn’t be exaggeration if I say that this very moment I hate The Vampire Diaries (writers and creators) with passion.
Yes, I’m not 12, and yes, it’s just a TV show, I don’t care. My life had been extremely stressful since last October when I found out that the company I worked for would be sold. The whole process was a nightmare, and 3 weeks ago my new boss had arrived, and it got so much worse. No, he is fine so far, and he seems to be nice, so I hope we’ll be fine. But everything changed, the whole concept, my duties, everything. I wasn’t that involved in the process before, and now I have to learn a lot, and learn it fast, and 24 hours is never enough. I was physically and emotionally exhausted lately. Like, A LOT! I was close to breaking down a few times but, well, I managed…
And then there comes TVD. It was my safe haven, my escape. I could have been on the verge of tears in the office but I always knew I’d come back home and watch it, and it would take my mind away and I’d feel better. I don’t care if it is pathetic or miserable. It was my small world that meant a lot. If anything, having a TV show to comfort you is better than drinking or pills, or whatever there is to do the job.Hey, everyone is coping as best they can!
So, I was getting ready to watch the show when I get a DM from my friend from Canada - because they have it screening one time earlier than US - where she told me Jenna was killed. Jenna was killed - I feel surreal writing it, and there is a huge case of denial going on here - I refuse to accept it. It can’t be true!! They might have as well killed me personally - which I would most likely be grateful for right now. In the end I couldn’t bring myself to watch it. I just started sobbing like crazy because it just hurt so much.
Sara Canning is amazing actress, I have no words to describe how much I love her and how talented she is. The very thought of Jenna being majorly underappreciated and underused on TVD is killing me. There were just so, so many ways of making her involved, of giving her a plot line and making hell of a character out of her. In the last few episodes Sara proved she’s capable of being beyond awesome! Funny fact is - a lot of people love Jenna, some didn’t care, but I have never ever met a fan who hated her or felt anything truly negative. She was unique like that. And honestly, she was a highlight and sunshine of this show, every single scene with her brought so much! She was sweet, caring, lovely, hilarious, and she tried so hard to make things right!!
She didn’t ask for any of that - for her sister’s death, for having to take care of the kids, for having to deal with all the crap that came along her way - but she’d accepted it and made the best out of it, and she did it with a smile. She did all she could possibly do to make it better for Elena and Jeremy. She was 25! *god, I’m 25, and I cannot keep goldfish - or even plants - alive. I would honestly consider my life worthwhile if I were half as good as Jenna. Sorry for side note*
I was thinking about all of that yesterday, and it somehow turned out that I'll quit the show not because they killed Jenna - although that alone could be a good reason. I'll quit it because the TV show is supposed to be entertaining, good must win over evil. When it's the other way around - well, I have enough of that in my life :S What’s the point of brining even more stress instead of making it better? I am not going to say “I wish they killed […] instead” if only because I would never want any other hardcore fans to go through what I’m going through.
Also, I am going to stop watching it because they don’t care about us, or about the characters they created. They only care about useless twists, shock effects and about proving the point - no one is safe, anyone can die, it’s a vampire show. Well, screw you guys, because I wasn’t investing in the character for 2 fucking seasons to be - “oh well, let’s see what else you’ve got for us”. For heaven’s sake, why KILL???? If you don’t need the character - send him/her somewhere! Send them to Narnia or to another dimension, just DON’T KILL!!! There were so many pointless deaths on this show that could have been escaped! God, I think they misinterpret the concept of a vampire show - bloody doesn’t mean everyone should die!! You know what? I don’t care about shock effects!! If you can’t find another way to keep the audience interested - you SUCK!
I’m numb now. I was so emotional that it probably burned me on the inside and I stopped feeling….
It’s almost surreal to think that just a few weeks ago I honestly thought that Alaric being possessed by Klaus was the worst thing that could have happened to the show. Then a week ago I was like - they can’t turn Jenna, we need Jalaric babies! Right now-hell, I’d give anything to have Alaric possessed by Klaus and evil vampire Jenna - just so that there was hope! Just so that I wouldn’t feel a lump in my throat every time I see their scenes/photos.
And right now I’m going to be a total selfish, egoistic, immature bitch - and deep inside I probably hate it, but not really - but I know I would take Jenna’s death so much easier if both she and Alaric died. I would cry buckets, I would drown myself in fanfics and fan-videos. But eventually, they’d be one memory for me. Don’t get me wrong, Alaric was the main reason I watched the show. Overall ship wars and obsessions get annoying. I preferred my little Jalaric world that was peaceful and cozy. And if they actually killed Alaric, I would be even more devastated - if possible - and I would hate them even more than now. But I’d know they’d be together. It would make it easier. They didn’t even say goodbye!
That was all they've got in 2x20 when she was damn understanding and forgiving because she saw how fragile their lives were and how easy it was to lose everyone she loved
If by any chance the writers decided to kill Jenna off only to bring in Meredith (Alaric’s gf from TVD books) - lame could never cover it. Never. It’s one of the reasons I cannot possibly stay and keep watching it - I LOVE Alaric and I wish the best to him, but selfishly, I would never be capable of watching him move on with someone else. He and Jenna were true soul mates, they were meant to be together, and this stupid show ruined it.
Also, I thought it would be easier for me if it was Sara’s decision. If she had tons of projects on hold and being semi-regular on the TV show was holding her back, and she’d decided to move on - I would totally understand that (read part about Jenna being hugely underused and underappreciated). But it turned out that it wasn’t her decision. No. This totally pointless move was on TVD.
Speaking of pointless, did you notice that Jenna’s death didn’t do any good? They are still in shit, in a very deep shit. I know she couldn’t have run and left Elena because she was amazing like that and she loved Elena too much, and it was her way of making it right. And she did her best to save her. Then why the hell didn’t they find a way to save Jenna??? Why does everyone have to die to save Elena??? She wanted to die from the start - kill her! She’s the main character, she’d never die for good. No, they preferred to turn yet another Alaric’s woman into a vampire and kill her (there’s not enough therapy in the world for this guy now). Klaus is still on the loose, Elena and Jeremy had lost ALL of their possible family members, and - what now, again?
“Let’s endanger her millions of times by keeping her in the dark, and then let’s tell her everything and kill her two days later” - awesome!! I love the train of their thought - feel sarcasm here,
Yes, I remember about the part where I promised not to say anything about my death wish list, but I will never get over the fact that Bonnie could have saved her and she didn’t. She could have fucking saved Jenna and Stefan didn’t let her!!! *I better not start on any of that*
I honestly don’t know what I am going to do now, what with all this reality thrown in my face and me not having a way to escape it. I feel horrible, empty and dead. And yes, I know it’s just a TV show, but my pretty lame life consists only of my job and this damn show. Well, only of job now. TVD meant a lot. It always will on some level. I just really want to know how to turn it all off now because it’s hard, and it hurts, and I want to stop feeling altogether. I want to stop breaking down every time I see the photos or read the comments.
So, for now, TVD ended for me sometime in the middle of 2x20, after Ric and Jenna got back together. 2x21 is something else, something wrong. I want to stay in denial forever
^^All of that are my thoughts, feelings and opinions. Most of them pretty incoherent, but then so am I. You don’t have to see them my way or agree. They are not debatable, I just didn’t want to spam my twitter with all of that.
That said, I will try to focus on the real life for a little while and maybe make some use of it.
Picspam in loving memory of Jenna Sommers (most not mine)
This is how it should have ended:
Can you even imagine the show without her??
And the saddest of them all - first meeting and last :'(((