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Tommorrow is my last day in santa barbara, and I am quite ready for it to be. I've had wonderful times here, and my character is probably irreversably etched by this town and my experiences in this town, but it's not home anymore. The people and institutions that defined me for the past few years are still here, mostly, but they've changed and have already adapted to my absence. My friends are mostly gone or will be gone when I am, and the friends who are left here really don't need me around. Plus, I think I'm just ready for something new. In a few days, I'm going to meet a crowd of people with no preconceptions about me and forge meaningful friendships; I'll finally have a chance to define myself without having to see my reflection in the people close to me. I'm so freaked out.