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Everything is begining to suck. I mean its all going downhill.
I was so keen on not doing anything about something, and yet I tried.
I can never keep well enough alone, and I really should start trying.
I really ruin everything, and I suck at everything it seems like.
No-one will talk to me.
I'm not going to the show tonight
And I don't even want to go to prom.
I don't know how me and Ronda are getting back or to whereever.
We're all going to my house after we eat
But what the hell seriously, I dont know whats going on.
I have no reason to be sad
Actually,. yeah, my uncle passed away.
But still. I shouldn't have cried when I read that but I did, because I'm a stupid cunt who doesnt do anything right, and when I try to make myself not do one thing, I do another.
I seriously just want to move out of Auburn, and go somewhere where no-one knows me, and start a new life.
It's like I can't help these things.
Rise Against- swing life away
Makes me want to jump off a cliff.
I need to get rid of it.
Basically what i need to do
Is get more confidence.
I'm going to try to fix myself in so many ways possible
It's going to be so stressful.
But I'm sick of looking how I do.
And I'm sick of being ditched.
Or just being a mad cool girl.
I'd rather be someone that anyone would like.
You have no idea what I'd give to just for once to actually feel liked.
Then my dads like "You'll find someone, but you dont need someone right now"
My stepgrandpa walks into the room, and looks at my lipring and goes "You were so pretty before, what did you go and do that for, you took away part of your prettyness."
Yeah. Right. I was pretty? Fuck no. It doesn't work like that.
I was so keen on not doing anything about something, and yet I tried.
I can never keep well enough alone, and I really should start trying.
I really ruin everything, and I suck at everything it seems like.
No-one will talk to me.
I'm not going to the show tonight
And I don't even want to go to prom.
I don't know how me and Ronda are getting back or to whereever.
We're all going to my house after we eat
But what the hell seriously, I dont know whats going on.
I have no reason to be sad
Actually,. yeah, my uncle passed away.
But still. I shouldn't have cried when I read that but I did, because I'm a stupid cunt who doesnt do anything right, and when I try to make myself not do one thing, I do another.
I seriously just want to move out of Auburn, and go somewhere where no-one knows me, and start a new life.
It's like I can't help these things.
Rise Against- swing life away
Makes me want to jump off a cliff.
I need to get rid of it.
Basically what i need to do
Is get more confidence.
I'm going to try to fix myself in so many ways possible
It's going to be so stressful.
But I'm sick of looking how I do.
And I'm sick of being ditched.
Or just being a mad cool girl.
I'd rather be someone that anyone would like.
You have no idea what I'd give to just for once to actually feel liked.
Then my dads like "You'll find someone, but you dont need someone right now"
My stepgrandpa walks into the room, and looks at my lipring and goes "You were so pretty before, what did you go and do that for, you took away part of your prettyness."
Yeah. Right. I was pretty? Fuck no. It doesn't work like that.