I'm not sure.
I'm not sure what to say. I feel like I don't fit in. Even when I try to join the group discussion I just come across like that person that everyone wants to shoot. I hate the way I act. I always feel like the biggest loser when I am around other people. Why do I even try anymore to fit in? I am never going to. I need friends that like the way I am and don't care if I wake up the neighbors because I am too loud. I need friends that aren't affraid to show me off to their other friends or family. No matter how hard I try I am never going to be normal. I wish I had a high self-essteam, then I could be who I want to be without feeling weird. I know that made no sense but who cares. No one is reading this shit but me. It's weird how I write thing in the sense that I am talking to someone. Man I am fucked up. I tired of this shit of trying to be the norm. I'm tired of trying to make people want me around. You know what I say now, yeah that's right. "Fuck OFF" If you don't like me then go suck my tennis shoe. And if I really had a tennis shoe you could to. I hate how I can't look any pretty girl in the face or how I can't show with my body langue that I am confindent. Well screw off you dam homos. I am tired of this shit called life. Why should I waste my time doing things that I find boring? Just because it makes others happy and makes me feel even sadier. Well fuck that from now on. I'm my own person that works for myself and doesn't care what others have to say. I bet in a week I'll be my old self again. The selfless little pussy that everyone walks over. Well we'll see.