How could I have not seen this coming?
I bear sad news... My boyfriend is now my ex-boyfriend... I didn't see it happen, really... He just came to me last Friday morning and dropped the bomb... He can't stand me being so near him constantly... He thought he could manage but he couldn't and now, our bedroom is separated in two and I'm all alone on my side without even a goddamned bed and a lot of hurt in my crushed heart... He was so tense, so "bracing for impact", I should have just turned away and pretended to be still asleep... but, instead, as I usually do, I asked what was wrong... In clipped tones, he told me how he really tried to not let the flame die out. He's so far gone, he doesn't even feel desire for me anymore... I tried to treat as a friend Monday, I was so far gone in my mindset, I pretended we didn't get together ever, and... I found myself falling all over again, goddamnit! And now, my heart hurts even more than before and ... and... I don't really know how my heart will survive in all this...