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I don't know what the fuck to do right now. I want someone to talk to, I want someone to be here for me. I want someone to understand, but no one does. My boyfriend left for California yesterday, my one other close friend doesn't ..really know what the hell to say to me anymore...And everyone else, lol..I'm sick of people faking to care too, but what can I expect? Maybe I just really want to talk to someone right now, anyone? No..maybe not anyone, I just..want to get out of here, get my mind off of the things that are bothering me.
I had a temper tantrum this afternoon, I screamed ..then realized it was more effective in my pillow, then hit the wall a few times. It's hard for me to let anger out..Things just seem to be adding up and putting me in a crummy mood. Chris is the only one who can really get me out of it right now, I'm pretty sure. Why can't things just stay steady for once?
Why can't I just drink some Felix Felicis like in Harry Potter, just be able to go out and have some really good luck? I need to escape.
And I need to stop caring about everyone, I need to stop being so hopeful for things that I know won't happen. I just need to sit and be unaffected, not expect anything.
A rock. That's what I need to be.
I had a temper tantrum this afternoon, I screamed ..then realized it was more effective in my pillow, then hit the wall a few times. It's hard for me to let anger out..Things just seem to be adding up and putting me in a crummy mood. Chris is the only one who can really get me out of it right now, I'm pretty sure. Why can't things just stay steady for once?
Why can't I just drink some Felix Felicis like in Harry Potter, just be able to go out and have some really good luck? I need to escape.
And I need to stop caring about everyone, I need to stop being so hopeful for things that I know won't happen. I just need to sit and be unaffected, not expect anything.
A rock. That's what I need to be.