Things are getting better!
Things are getting a little better with this whole "drama".
I went and talked to my parents. And told them that what had happened when he proposed to me. I told them every thing then said that I didn't love him and wasn’t ready for marriage especially to a person like him. I said that he was immature and not ready to be married either. i then asked them why they wanted me to get married so badly, they didn’t' tell me strait out and went fumbling around on different issues not getting to the real heart of the issue. So I guessed that they didn't want to tell me the real reason. And I was so fed up that I surprisingly didn't want to know or care about it. So I let it go.
They were obviously quite disappointed with my decision and let me know it too, but I think that they all along knew that the “go ahead” rested in my hands and in my decision because not matter how unrealistic they can be some times they would never really truly actually “FORCE” me into something I DID not want to do (at least I think so) And I made it VERY clear that I DID NOT want to marry Samuel.
A few times I broke down (I couldn’t help it) when talking to them and I’m pretty sure that understood me and how I felt.
I then proposed to them that I felt I needed to get away because this whole “marriage” thing has been going of for more than a few months now. I felt in need of a holiday-by my self-so I told them and they were upset but once again knew that I had made up my mind and wouldn’t get on with “the world” too well unless I had a break. So I am going to Hong Kong for a BIG shopping trip. I haven’t been on one of those for SO long it’s hardly laughable. I will be staying there for a few weeks, I’m not quite sure. I’m going to make sure that this trip is very slow and easy not rush rush rush like all my other similar trips have been. So I’m not putting an exact date-to-be-back on myself or giving a promise to any one. I’m just going to say I won’t be gone the whole year. My true destination is Australia after Hong Kong my main big destination (I may stop of at other places in-between Italy and Hong Kong and Hong Kong and Australia, I’m not sure, like I said I’m taking it very easy) in Australia is to visit the Great Barrier Reef.
As you can imagine I am greatly looking forward to this trip and I’ll be leaving soon. In about a couple of months.
I’m actually almost thinking of taking a ship cruise from Hong Kong. That will be VERY relaxing. And that way if it becomes a little TOO boring-relaxing-I’ll be able to get off at one of our stops and fly the rest of the way…..or whatever! But I don’t know what sea liner to take. I heard there was a million dollar one…..and I did consider that but I thought…1million is a fare bit of money and I expect you’d get the same features on a less expensive cruise just not as “flashy” as the million dollar one. But I wouldn’t be missing out on any thing really other than being able to say to my friends that “I’ve been on the million dollar ship cruiser” which I think is a bit desperate. I’d rather save the money for other things further on in my travels. But I won’t worry about that now. I’ll think about the sea liner when I get to Hong Kong.
I may go to England also…..a place I’ve always wanted to visit any way I’m getting a little carried away now, these things can be decided when I’m actually ON my trip.
Of course I haven’t told Samuel about ANY of this and I’m not going to. He has become more desperate and I don’t trust him one single bit and am starting to doubt his sanity……I don’t know what he would do if he found out where I was going. Something crazy like follow me. Nothing he did would surprise me now.
But I have firmly told him that marriage is no longer an option between him and myself and my parents agree, in fact my parents are going to talk to him also, but he doesn’t know that at the moment and the reason my parents are going to talk to him (they were happy for me to say all that had to be said) because he doesn’t think my word means any thing and is still being harassing (that’s an understatement) me and I have told my parents all about it. And they will talk to him. Though I doubt they will talk to him firmly. They will more than likely sympathise with him, trying their best to make him understand that their “dear” daughter loathes him. *snort* And then more than likely he will take it that they still wish he could marry me (which they do) and will continue to harass me. But this is one of the main reasons I’m going away for a while. Hopefully he will forget about it all by the time I come back (maybe with a special man to frighten him away. ). If not I will be the one doing something drastic and consider strongly moving away. Something I have considered lately but then thought against it because that is a little rash. I’m pretty sure that this trip will settle the matter for a while. If not…like I said I will move away.
I love you girls. You have really given me some good advice that I have taken and used. As you can obviously tell by this update I am feeling much better than before. And I you will be able to read my update with ease because I have taken care with my spelling this time. I hope....:)
I will try to keep you updated in the future about my trip and all. I may by an expensive cordless lap top (my old one is too old) so as i will be able to stay in contact more frequently on my trip as it's happening.
I went and talked to my parents. And told them that what had happened when he proposed to me. I told them every thing then said that I didn't love him and wasn’t ready for marriage especially to a person like him. I said that he was immature and not ready to be married either. i then asked them why they wanted me to get married so badly, they didn’t' tell me strait out and went fumbling around on different issues not getting to the real heart of the issue. So I guessed that they didn't want to tell me the real reason. And I was so fed up that I surprisingly didn't want to know or care about it. So I let it go.
They were obviously quite disappointed with my decision and let me know it too, but I think that they all along knew that the “go ahead” rested in my hands and in my decision because not matter how unrealistic they can be some times they would never really truly actually “FORCE” me into something I DID not want to do (at least I think so) And I made it VERY clear that I DID NOT want to marry Samuel.
A few times I broke down (I couldn’t help it) when talking to them and I’m pretty sure that understood me and how I felt.
I then proposed to them that I felt I needed to get away because this whole “marriage” thing has been going of for more than a few months now. I felt in need of a holiday-by my self-so I told them and they were upset but once again knew that I had made up my mind and wouldn’t get on with “the world” too well unless I had a break. So I am going to Hong Kong for a BIG shopping trip. I haven’t been on one of those for SO long it’s hardly laughable. I will be staying there for a few weeks, I’m not quite sure. I’m going to make sure that this trip is very slow and easy not rush rush rush like all my other similar trips have been. So I’m not putting an exact date-to-be-back on myself or giving a promise to any one. I’m just going to say I won’t be gone the whole year. My true destination is Australia after Hong Kong my main big destination (I may stop of at other places in-between Italy and Hong Kong and Hong Kong and Australia, I’m not sure, like I said I’m taking it very easy) in Australia is to visit the Great Barrier Reef.
As you can imagine I am greatly looking forward to this trip and I’ll be leaving soon. In about a couple of months.
I’m actually almost thinking of taking a ship cruise from Hong Kong. That will be VERY relaxing. And that way if it becomes a little TOO boring-relaxing-I’ll be able to get off at one of our stops and fly the rest of the way…..or whatever! But I don’t know what sea liner to take. I heard there was a million dollar one…..and I did consider that but I thought…1million is a fare bit of money and I expect you’d get the same features on a less expensive cruise just not as “flashy” as the million dollar one. But I wouldn’t be missing out on any thing really other than being able to say to my friends that “I’ve been on the million dollar ship cruiser” which I think is a bit desperate. I’d rather save the money for other things further on in my travels. But I won’t worry about that now. I’ll think about the sea liner when I get to Hong Kong.
I may go to England also…..a place I’ve always wanted to visit any way I’m getting a little carried away now, these things can be decided when I’m actually ON my trip.
Of course I haven’t told Samuel about ANY of this and I’m not going to. He has become more desperate and I don’t trust him one single bit and am starting to doubt his sanity……I don’t know what he would do if he found out where I was going. Something crazy like follow me. Nothing he did would surprise me now.
But I have firmly told him that marriage is no longer an option between him and myself and my parents agree, in fact my parents are going to talk to him also, but he doesn’t know that at the moment and the reason my parents are going to talk to him (they were happy for me to say all that had to be said) because he doesn’t think my word means any thing and is still being harassing (that’s an understatement) me and I have told my parents all about it. And they will talk to him. Though I doubt they will talk to him firmly. They will more than likely sympathise with him, trying their best to make him understand that their “dear” daughter loathes him. *snort* And then more than likely he will take it that they still wish he could marry me (which they do) and will continue to harass me. But this is one of the main reasons I’m going away for a while. Hopefully he will forget about it all by the time I come back (maybe with a special man to frighten him away. ). If not I will be the one doing something drastic and consider strongly moving away. Something I have considered lately but then thought against it because that is a little rash. I’m pretty sure that this trip will settle the matter for a while. If not…like I said I will move away.
I love you girls. You have really given me some good advice that I have taken and used. As you can obviously tell by this update I am feeling much better than before. And I you will be able to read my update with ease because I have taken care with my spelling this time. I hope....:)
I will try to keep you updated in the future about my trip and all. I may by an expensive cordless lap top (my old one is too old) so as i will be able to stay in contact more frequently on my trip as it's happening.