mid-college crisis
I talked to mom tonight for about an hour, and told her how I feel like such a failure. The last time I've gotten a C in anything was in middle school and that was just a bad time overall for me, and basically Cs were a pretty damn good grade then. I got a C on my last accounting test and for me...blah. This just hits me hard even though it shouldn't, since it's just a C! But right now, combined with how unattached I feel to my major (despite how much I want to be excited/passionate about it), this grade is just one more reason for me to feel absolutely horrible. I don't know what I should do. I'm scared that I won't get a high enough grade on my last 2 quizzes and final to even get above a C in that class. I have to pass it...I just don't have much confidence in my ability to do so at this point.
I hope accounting is what I should be getting into. I applied for certification and now all I've been doing is thinking...about what I want to do, about what will make me happy, what will make me successful. All of the things I should have been thinking about before I applied...I'm thinking about now. Thing is, I know what would make me excited to go to work everyday and I am so far from that right now that there's no way I do it without completely starting over, and that's not an option. So of course that just makes me depressed too. Argh. In terms of paths right now, I'm at a...what's the word...I'm at a place where I can go into anything in business that I want. I haven't taken any of the upper-level courses yet, so I can do anything. I just pray, and unfortunately I don't pray that often, that I made the right choice.
I hope accounting is what I should be getting into. I applied for certification and now all I've been doing is thinking...about what I want to do, about what will make me happy, what will make me successful. All of the things I should have been thinking about before I applied...I'm thinking about now. Thing is, I know what would make me excited to go to work everyday and I am so far from that right now that there's no way I do it without completely starting over, and that's not an option. So of course that just makes me depressed too. Argh. In terms of paths right now, I'm at a...what's the word...I'm at a place where I can go into anything in business that I want. I haven't taken any of the upper-level courses yet, so I can do anything. I just pray, and unfortunately I don't pray that often, that I made the right choice.