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awwI dont have friends anymore. Theres no one I call and say "Im bored, lets do something" I dont speak to anyone I used to talk to. In fact, I dont really talk to anyone anymore. In a way I'm dieing for more human interaction yet when i get around people I dont bother talking to them. I think its the lack of options I have at my school. I talk to the people i was in the play with, because I spent so goddamn much time with them and we became pretty good friends. I talk to a few random kids around town and thats about it. I used to conciter myself part of a group of friends. Now I dont have a group and it feels really strange to me. I dont want to go back to anyone because theres no one around like me. I know people with the same values and interests exist, but where are they? I'm getting sick again, for a while i thought smoking was a sham, that it did no harm to you. After a few years now its starting to kill me. A few years now, where has the time gone? If life goes by this fast I might as well get used to being alone for the rest of my days. I'd like an artsy boy, whos the same as me, who likes to dress in completely nonsense clothes. Thats what i need, i dont want any friends, id like a loverboy.