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Since I got home from school today ive had this cloud of melancholy kind of hanging over me. I was thinking about how the beginning of seventh grade, shannon and i were dying, just because we were thinking about how long we would be stuck in that school.I remember in 9th and 10th how cool i thought i was because i hung out with older kids, juniors and seniors like zach and davis not to mention the freaking orphans. I thought they were so mature.. and more importantly OLD, but now that im that age i dont feel it. The past 4 years have flown by. Im almost a senior, which means that the seniors i know now will be leaving any time now. Im going to miss Kara so freaking much. Moving like, a state or 2 away, maybe i could deal with that. But all the way across the country. OH lordy. Shes pretty much the only reason i have even an ounce of cool in me. cause uh, she pretty much changed my life. I would probably be a lonely hanson fan if it werent for her. but uh anyway. The whole point of that was how i dont really feel old. I always imagined being this age and feeling old, but uh i guess that doesnt happen. And also im pretty torn, because i love it here, I love being 16 and not having a care or a worry except whats going on this weekend. But i hate it here at the same time because come on, its NEPA. Its so weird that people dont keep in touch with their high school friends, or at least most people. I mean, youve grown up with these kids, youve spent almost every day with them since you were like what.. 6? and then nothing, you all go your separate ways and then nothing.
i guess i just dont get it. I probably never will
i guess i just dont get it. I probably never will