till the world end.
I hasn't been updating this space since i started training, sad thing is, i can't blog anything about work. Nothing at all, being scrutinized but no choice :( No longer a private space even if i set security to private. Well, besides that I have been sleeping @ 8.30pm almost every night and waking up @ 5.30am every mon-fri. Now i'm convinced that a good rest provide full concentration in the day.
So nothing about work, something about myself. I gain weight, mad heavy now. Ever since i join OCBC, i kept growing. sigh, I have never exceed my weight in my past 20years. Until I hit 21 :( I want to go back to my old self, but i have no motivation to exercise and no determination to stay away from good food :/ Can some kind soul take away all my fats and save me!! T.T sigh, out weight issue aside, I have grown so much independent and mature ever since i shifted out & join SQ. Bad thing is, I start to love hanging out alone. omg, I never used to like shopping, eating etc alone. NEVER, & now, I like being alone. I'm no longer chatty, no longer sociable to strangers. I prefer to only hang out only with my old friends. Is that part of growing process that every one will go through? I'm not too sure.
& for relationship wise, I have grown so much stronger. Maybe it's all the setbacks, what fails to bring you down will build you stronger, how true. Recently I have seen so many of my friends undergoing break ups, & it was a pretty bad one. Mostly, the guys strayed. I don't understand why this happen. But i realised, no such thing as trust really. We thought he was the type of man that you will never find anymore anywhere else. There's simply nothing about him that you wouldn't like. & he never ever made her cry throughout their 2 years r/s. Then just one service night, he knew some other girl and he realise the grass is always greener on the other side. & he broke my friend's heart. I no longer have faith in relationship to be honest, but i stop being the 18 year old girl. I no longer probe when i see something i shouldn't see, I no longer suspect, I no longer possess. There are just so much things I no longer do like how i used to behave, like a 16 year old girl who are sensitive & immature. Because, I know I have so much better things to do, than to live in self denial.
Oh well, cest la vie.
So nothing about work, something about myself. I gain weight, mad heavy now. Ever since i join OCBC, i kept growing. sigh, I have never exceed my weight in my past 20years. Until I hit 21 :( I want to go back to my old self, but i have no motivation to exercise and no determination to stay away from good food :/ Can some kind soul take away all my fats and save me!! T.T sigh, out weight issue aside, I have grown so much independent and mature ever since i shifted out & join SQ. Bad thing is, I start to love hanging out alone. omg, I never used to like shopping, eating etc alone. NEVER, & now, I like being alone. I'm no longer chatty, no longer sociable to strangers. I prefer to only hang out only with my old friends. Is that part of growing process that every one will go through? I'm not too sure.
& for relationship wise, I have grown so much stronger. Maybe it's all the setbacks, what fails to bring you down will build you stronger, how true. Recently I have seen so many of my friends undergoing break ups, & it was a pretty bad one. Mostly, the guys strayed. I don't understand why this happen. But i realised, no such thing as trust really. We thought he was the type of man that you will never find anymore anywhere else. There's simply nothing about him that you wouldn't like. & he never ever made her cry throughout their 2 years r/s. Then just one service night, he knew some other girl and he realise the grass is always greener on the other side. & he broke my friend's heart. I no longer have faith in relationship to be honest, but i stop being the 18 year old girl. I no longer probe when i see something i shouldn't see, I no longer suspect, I no longer possess. There are just so much things I no longer do like how i used to behave, like a 16 year old girl who are sensitive & immature. Because, I know I have so much better things to do, than to live in self denial.
Oh well, cest la vie.