Positive Attitude
Not sure where this entry will go so just bare with me for a minute, My look on life has always been a positive one even though around me all I ever seem to see is fucked up things. I hate confrontation but love solutions, might seem like thats an oxymoron since how does anything get resolved with out confronting the problem in the first place. these are questions I cant answer, I can only go by what I have seen and whatI have been through. It always seems to work in the way its suppose to work.
I want to be a better person not only for myself but for the people around me. I cope with addiction every single day and sometimes I have no idea how I got here and just because use the word addiction does not mean I am a drug addict. There are many forms of addiction. there are sex, drug, food, abusive, and etc. addicts. I dont really think I fit into any of those categories. I am addicted to love. striving for it, wanting it, accepting it. My whole life thats all I have ever wanted, from my dad, my mom, a girlfriend and so on. My Grandma showed me how to love and in return I am entirely grateful for that. Sometimes its hard for me to believe she is even gone because she kind of made the man you see today which at times I am not sure if thats a good thing but then I realize how fucking awesome I am.
Will I love again? not sure if I can answer this right now at the bright age of 30 but what I can say is I wont bypass love like I have in the past. I will welcome it and not be afraid that the love will disappear in the night. I will live for the moment and hope the moment doesnt pass me by....
I want to be a better person not only for myself but for the people around me. I cope with addiction every single day and sometimes I have no idea how I got here and just because use the word addiction does not mean I am a drug addict. There are many forms of addiction. there are sex, drug, food, abusive, and etc. addicts. I dont really think I fit into any of those categories. I am addicted to love. striving for it, wanting it, accepting it. My whole life thats all I have ever wanted, from my dad, my mom, a girlfriend and so on. My Grandma showed me how to love and in return I am entirely grateful for that. Sometimes its hard for me to believe she is even gone because she kind of made the man you see today which at times I am not sure if thats a good thing but then I realize how fucking awesome I am.
Will I love again? not sure if I can answer this right now at the bright age of 30 but what I can say is I wont bypass love like I have in the past. I will welcome it and not be afraid that the love will disappear in the night. I will live for the moment and hope the moment doesnt pass me by....