July 16, 2005
I woke extremely early again, like every day this week, to the prospect of working all day at my father's bidding. I mowed the lawn, collected debris and dumped them on the compost pile. After that, mid-afternoon, I chased some ghosts of my past until about 9, when I came home to find my grandparents having a drink. I feel a bit troubled, though I'm unsure exactly why. I didn't really want to come online, but I feel guilty for not being there for my friends, and I came to check on them. Most of them are gone, and I'm just making sure the ones that are, are okay. They'll probably see me as weird, but...I need to make sure.