it takes me a long time, but it's gonna be alright
i realize things often. possibly evertime i take a deep breath.
i spend time with people that i love and i don't even know that i love them until they tell me so.
i walk into buildings a lot of times a day. i keep my head up usually. or look down at the ground in the tuffest way possible. the only times i smile are when i see people i know and like or with strangers that are nicer than usually and i can tell they don't want anything from me.
i am sexualized as a female all day long. from the cat calls i get on the streets to the cat calls i get in the office. women outside of their corporate offices asking me what company i work for so that they can call us up when they need a courier because it's "really refreshing to see women doing this kind of work." i feel like it bothers me. i know that it does. but i don't know where to start anymore. it's someone elses turn to do the trans advocacy work.
enough complaining
larry is amazing. people don't make me think anymore in the ways i need to. larry does. i am thinking but not very well on paper.
i spend time with people that i love and i don't even know that i love them until they tell me so.
i walk into buildings a lot of times a day. i keep my head up usually. or look down at the ground in the tuffest way possible. the only times i smile are when i see people i know and like or with strangers that are nicer than usually and i can tell they don't want anything from me.
i am sexualized as a female all day long. from the cat calls i get on the streets to the cat calls i get in the office. women outside of their corporate offices asking me what company i work for so that they can call us up when they need a courier because it's "really refreshing to see women doing this kind of work." i feel like it bothers me. i know that it does. but i don't know where to start anymore. it's someone elses turn to do the trans advocacy work.
enough complaining
larry is amazing. people don't make me think anymore in the ways i need to. larry does. i am thinking but not very well on paper.