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I wonder, as I sit here thinking of you, do you miss me? Do you miss my laugh? My smile? Do you miss my tears? When you think of me, out of the blue, do you smile? Are your memories of me good ones?
Who remembers that post?
I hate thinking about him. I want to cry. I want to throw up. Most of you know who I'm talking about. Does my life hold anything other than him? I hate him. WHY can't I hate him? I'm still so attached.... I need to escape him, but I don't know how.
I read over emails he sent me. IM convos that we've had. Journal entries I wrote about him. I remember everything he ever said to me. I remember sitting in the gazebo for HOURS talking to him on the phone. I remember staying after practice that one night... I remember looking at him and wanting so badly to be WITH him.
And then- NOTHING. I miss him. I keep thinking I made the wrong decision. I could still have his friendship if I had only not said anything.
I am so stupid.
Who remembers that post?
I hate thinking about him. I want to cry. I want to throw up. Most of you know who I'm talking about. Does my life hold anything other than him? I hate him. WHY can't I hate him? I'm still so attached.... I need to escape him, but I don't know how.
I read over emails he sent me. IM convos that we've had. Journal entries I wrote about him. I remember everything he ever said to me. I remember sitting in the gazebo for HOURS talking to him on the phone. I remember staying after practice that one night... I remember looking at him and wanting so badly to be WITH him.
And then- NOTHING. I miss him. I keep thinking I made the wrong decision. I could still have his friendship if I had only not said anything.
I am so stupid.