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I guess part of me wants to tell my secrets to some people because I don't want them to get the wrong impression of me. I don't want people thinking I am perfect, or that I am this quiet girl that goes to church and just loves God and wouldn't do anything wrong in the world. But that's not true. I wish it was...
I guess I was thinking about all of this while babysitting. Like, what kind of person parents look for in a sitter. They don't want someone who goes out and has sex, does drugs, has an eating disorder, uses foul language, drinks, parties, and is disrespectful. I don't know; I've felt like recently I haven't been the best person I can be.
Hannah, my accountability partner, sent me a message today with the verse Ephesians 5:17
Don't live carelessly, unthinkingly. Make sure you understand what the Master wants.
I am so foolish to know what He wants and to not live accordingly. :/
Today I ate chocolate cake. It was so weird though. I was like addicted to the chocolate icing, and not caring so much for the cake. Halfway through the piece I got tired of it, but kept eating it because I thought that's what I wanted. I thought it would make me happy or please me or something. But it didn't. Not at all. It was so weird. Because I had been craving chocolate all day.
I guess I was thinking about all of this while babysitting. Like, what kind of person parents look for in a sitter. They don't want someone who goes out and has sex, does drugs, has an eating disorder, uses foul language, drinks, parties, and is disrespectful. I don't know; I've felt like recently I haven't been the best person I can be.
Hannah, my accountability partner, sent me a message today with the verse Ephesians 5:17
Don't live carelessly, unthinkingly. Make sure you understand what the Master wants.
I am so foolish to know what He wants and to not live accordingly. :/
Today I ate chocolate cake. It was so weird though. I was like addicted to the chocolate icing, and not caring so much for the cake. Halfway through the piece I got tired of it, but kept eating it because I thought that's what I wanted. I thought it would make me happy or please me or something. But it didn't. Not at all. It was so weird. Because I had been craving chocolate all day.