ahhh
I'm manic hypomanic whatever you want to call it and its driving me crazy. I've been up all night thinking about weird shit. At 8am I decided that I should clean out my car and thankfully I was able to ignore that urge. I'd still like to clean out my car but it's too early. At least I'm sane enough to know how ridiculous I'm being. I already called Casey twice and woke him at least once asking him what meds I should take. I took my last klonopin. I'm going to call the health center when it opens if I'm not feeling better in a half hour. Since they open in a half hour.
ER starts soon maybe I can watch that. I also have to finish my works cited for my soc paper. I have so much shit I'm thinking about and the same five tasks are cycling through my head and they're not going to stop until I finish them. But I know it's stupid to do that stuff right now. I'm fucking tired and I can't sleep. And all I can think about is how dirty the backseat of my car is or how I don't have a good enough topic for my senior project. Damn damn damn. I feel fidgety and uncomfortable and I just want someone to give me something to get me to calm down.
ahhhhh. AHHHHHH.
ER starts soon maybe I can watch that. I also have to finish my works cited for my soc paper. I have so much shit I'm thinking about and the same five tasks are cycling through my head and they're not going to stop until I finish them. But I know it's stupid to do that stuff right now. I'm fucking tired and I can't sleep. And all I can think about is how dirty the backseat of my car is or how I don't have a good enough topic for my senior project. Damn damn damn. I feel fidgety and uncomfortable and I just want someone to give me something to get me to calm down.
ahhhhh. AHHHHHH.