this is me...
1.this is me feeling scared
2.this is me feeling stressed
3.this is me feeling sad
4.this is me feeling stubborn
5.this is me feeling hurt
6.this is me feeling loved
1.
so yet another trip to the wonderful urgent care offices of fullerton california. i dont know what it is but i know they will. the headaches the lumps i just know something isnt right
2.
no clue how i'm gonna pay for it-
what if i go and nothing is even wrong then all that hard earned money wasted-
3.
thank you mike, pat, irene and mom for caring and trying to make me feel at ease-
i know no matter what you will be there for me mike and that makes me feel 100 times better
we had a great weekend. the short phone calls, the text messages mean so much.
2.4.5.
i dont need fake sympathy or empathy
i got a raise friday and instead of being a great night of celebrating like i wanted it was a night to learn that the people that i care about dont care as much about me it was pretty painful and you know me i made it pretty dramatic i just wanted to hang out
i know i havent been around alot lately its just because i've been working so hard and i wake up so early
i never thought my absence was a big deal
the group minus one is no big deal
but i learned one minus the group hurts
6.
so mike took me out on friday and even though i was being a big baby he made sure to do all he could so i could have a good time
i guess it goes back to my whole thing about me not wanting flowers at my funeral, if you cant give them to me when i'm alive and well why the fuck do want them whn i'm dead?
i know i'm not dying
the point is that it should take something tragic to show people you care
i want it all the time
1.
although i am scared that i'm gonna go later and its gonna be something minor and a waste of monay i'm hoping it is
and if its not i have no clue how to pay for it
blah
lunch time
-dez
2.this is me feeling stressed
3.this is me feeling sad
4.this is me feeling stubborn
5.this is me feeling hurt
6.this is me feeling loved
1.
so yet another trip to the wonderful urgent care offices of fullerton california. i dont know what it is but i know they will. the headaches the lumps i just know something isnt right
2.
no clue how i'm gonna pay for it-
what if i go and nothing is even wrong then all that hard earned money wasted-
3.
thank you mike, pat, irene and mom for caring and trying to make me feel at ease-
i know no matter what you will be there for me mike and that makes me feel 100 times better
we had a great weekend. the short phone calls, the text messages mean so much.
2.4.5.
i dont need fake sympathy or empathy
i got a raise friday and instead of being a great night of celebrating like i wanted it was a night to learn that the people that i care about dont care as much about me it was pretty painful and you know me i made it pretty dramatic i just wanted to hang out
i know i havent been around alot lately its just because i've been working so hard and i wake up so early
i never thought my absence was a big deal
the group minus one is no big deal
but i learned one minus the group hurts
6.
so mike took me out on friday and even though i was being a big baby he made sure to do all he could so i could have a good time
i guess it goes back to my whole thing about me not wanting flowers at my funeral, if you cant give them to me when i'm alive and well why the fuck do want them whn i'm dead?
i know i'm not dying
the point is that it should take something tragic to show people you care
i want it all the time
1.
although i am scared that i'm gonna go later and its gonna be something minor and a waste of monay i'm hoping it is
and if its not i have no clue how to pay for it
blah
lunch time
-dez