i am i am i am!
i really am demanding of myself that i get on here more often again and catch-up. the library isn't /that far/ away that i keep not coming here!
i also /am/ going to start writing more again and really looking into pursuing my dreams again.
the dream of moving down here has worked as it should. put our minds to it, got help, and made it happen.
now need to do the same things with writing, trying to save money/pay off credit card, and get in possition to start studying for some kind of actual /career/.
am actually thinking of maybe a career in fortune-telling or alternative healing. seem to be very good at reading tarot (at least my friends say so) and also good at giving massages. either one actually fit pretty well with the idea of helping people i had when i wanted to be a psychologist before i figured out how messed up and controlled that career field seems to be.
uhm... yeah i also am going to move again within the next decade i have decided, to either japan or great britain. dunno which yet. might be more of a economic decision than anything when the time comes but right now it is a dream i have decided on.
in alternate planning, i would move to the coast of the pacific northwest, near a very humid forest... but only if i can't manage to afford moving overseas. we'll see.
right now tho things are just short-term planning. study for things and try to get into a career, and fix money issues.
new job is needed other than red lobster. new starbucks job is fun and full of amazing people who i wish were a little less burnt-out feeling. its already giving me consistently more hours than red lobster and that makes kitty cry... only not really cause i'd rather be working there anyway!
nothing else for now really. i'm just determined to get things done that are actually dreamful now.
i think i have mostly let go of the dream that i've wanted most passionately for the past year. if it ever comes it will come when i least expect it, and pursuing it just pushes it further from my reach.
which sucks but trying to control things you can't is something i know better than to do, even if i really want to sometimes.
everything happens as it is supposed to happen. the Tao leads and i must follow my Way.
for i am a wayfarer;
a pilgrim on this path.
through time and space,
accepting the experiences
which are presented to me
and giving back,
that which can be given.
yes. this is me. this is what i'm made for. helping people no matter how important or unimportant. whoever stumbles along the Way.
heee... in this moment, i am serene. n_n
i also /am/ going to start writing more again and really looking into pursuing my dreams again.
the dream of moving down here has worked as it should. put our minds to it, got help, and made it happen.
now need to do the same things with writing, trying to save money/pay off credit card, and get in possition to start studying for some kind of actual /career/.
am actually thinking of maybe a career in fortune-telling or alternative healing. seem to be very good at reading tarot (at least my friends say so) and also good at giving massages. either one actually fit pretty well with the idea of helping people i had when i wanted to be a psychologist before i figured out how messed up and controlled that career field seems to be.
uhm... yeah i also am going to move again within the next decade i have decided, to either japan or great britain. dunno which yet. might be more of a economic decision than anything when the time comes but right now it is a dream i have decided on.
in alternate planning, i would move to the coast of the pacific northwest, near a very humid forest... but only if i can't manage to afford moving overseas. we'll see.
right now tho things are just short-term planning. study for things and try to get into a career, and fix money issues.
new job is needed other than red lobster. new starbucks job is fun and full of amazing people who i wish were a little less burnt-out feeling. its already giving me consistently more hours than red lobster and that makes kitty cry... only not really cause i'd rather be working there anyway!
nothing else for now really. i'm just determined to get things done that are actually dreamful now.
i think i have mostly let go of the dream that i've wanted most passionately for the past year. if it ever comes it will come when i least expect it, and pursuing it just pushes it further from my reach.
which sucks but trying to control things you can't is something i know better than to do, even if i really want to sometimes.
everything happens as it is supposed to happen. the Tao leads and i must follow my Way.
for i am a wayfarer;
a pilgrim on this path.
through time and space,
accepting the experiences
which are presented to me
and giving back,
that which can be given.
yes. this is me. this is what i'm made for. helping people no matter how important or unimportant. whoever stumbles along the Way.
heee... in this moment, i am serene. n_n