crying silent tears that scream your name..

[myonlymemory]

stupid me for thinking i was strong enough to face this..
i was not. i thought i could do it.. i really did

seeing you again was probably the hardest thing i've done in a long time
being in the same room and being so far away
nothing will replace your memory
and that's what i have to face

time heals.. true
but how could you be so heartless..
i knew what you were capable of, it's my stupidity for thinking
you had changed.. you have only gotten worse..
which i didn't think was possible. but again you have proved me wrong.

sorry for thinking you had a heart.. or a conscience
or anything ..

got my hair cut.. and schools out.. and there are road trips to be had..
atleast there is something that could possibly be good..
but one way or another it will all work out badly in the end..
hate to put a damper on such a wonderful holiday.. ahhh fuck
thistimelastyearyouwerewithme.whoswithyounow

i hope you choke.**