is it a left or a right

[myonlylifismusi]

do you realize that no matter what descion u make your not gunna be fully happy. and no matter which desion not everys gunna be happy with you either. and no matter how great it would be u cant make it so u dont have to choose and its perfect. no either way u have to choose unhappiness. and u cant put it off a descion must be made in the next ten minutes or u can loose everything uve tried so hard to get and keep. and no matter what ull end up losing a part of it and being sad. and as we get older the more descions like these we must make. each one killing a little part of us as we choose it. and lookingback youll always wonder what would have happened if you choose the other one. would u be where u are today. would u be worse or better off. always secound guessing. always wanting to go back in time with all the knowledge you have now and making this better and perfect. cause thats what we strive for.. perfect. something none of us can ever acheive. but its every1 of ours goal subconsciencly . to never have to endure another moment of pain. to never have to secound guess or worry about things to come cause ur so content with where u are now it doesnt matter and it could never hurt you. but right now you are in the place were uve gone so far with secound guessing and partail regreats ur afraid to make any descions cause ur afraid to hurt and think and feel. uld rather be totally numb than to have to deal with any feeling of anything ever again. and uld do anything to go back from the start and tell you which descions to make to make your life perfect but still lose nothing and keep everything u love. but its not possible. and your stuck in the future thinking of none exsisting possiblity for bliss. well its something ull never get, ever, so give up or u can make this descion. but know whatever u choose right now will affect you the rest of your life, 1 leading to utter happiness, the other to a life of tourment. its a fork in the road to ur final destenation, and u lost your map long ago. u have ten minutes to choose.