TRY HONESTY!
well its january 18th of the year two thousand and five. hm i felt like writing that year out. do u know wat expectations were placed on this year in the past. like they thought we would have flying cars by now. i guess were not as smart as we thought. dont catch on quick. i guess we still put to much of expectations on things. think theyll be better than wat we have, set goals so far theyre basically out of reach. trusting in ourselve and every1 else maybe just a little too much, maybe way to much. thinking things can go as planned, that just cause u wish them theyll be. but can we wait no. we'll just bitch and moan and do nothing about it. just take the 1st thing that comes to us. the way that looks easiest. cant hold on one more secound. just be dissapoointed and look away. its ur fault, set the standards to far for ourselves and others, for any1 at all. lieing and pretending we care or dont. and just using the ppl who know wat to do untill theyre wasted away and worthless. dont look back on them, u wont want to feel pain will u? u could never feel the want they felt it would hurt to much and ur to much of a coward arent u? jump on the last boat off the titanic and let the helpless die in the cold and be fed to the shark, but only after hours of pain and shock. singing theyre children to sleep, just to protect them, but knowing theyll die. knowing they cant do shit. but no u got on that boat ur safe dont look back. dont think of the kids who will never grow up and get past this, just think of urself like u always have. will it be worth it, when that 1 day u do think about it and realize ur the most horrible thing uve ever known. more terrible than the things u bitch about, thinking about it so hard u break down, kill all the mirrors, cause ur still a coward and wouldnt ever harm urself? did they have champagne on that rescue boat? i hope it was good, i hope the things u hurt were drowned away from u that night after the third glass. as long as u wont look back u wont care. like the person who was raised to belieeve theyld own hover craft by now. wats fifty years when the world will go on past u, when forever goes on and forgets u, when new empires are raised and nothing is the same. theyll have hover crafts. but u couldnt wait. u got a dodge.