im gonna make it alright
i'm beginning to think that everything in my life is just a waste of my time.everything is just so fucked up.my mom like hates me now,my family is never around to justy say hi,and they leave every weeknd barely even calling.i get forgotten alot,like at work.they forget i have to work,then they forget i have to be pickedup.fuck.i miss erin alot.and i miss sho. me and him were best friends since i was in 6th grade.iwwas with that kid everyday of my life. now he calls me like once every 2 weeks.weird how things have changed so much.and its weird how ive been looking for something for about ayear now, finally find it, and it ends up to turn out,that im right back where i started.trying for nothing.life hates me.when will something good come & stay for once.just oneeee thing thats all i ask.im not asking for everything to be PERFECt all the time.ijust want something good to look forward to when i wake up in the morning.its just i never want to get back to the point how i was when i was 10.idont wanna be on no stupid medication for being depressed ever again,i was fucken 10, 10 year oolds arent supposed to be on depression meds.i could barely swollow a pill.thats why i try to make everything good out of my life.i know there's just something waiting to happen.and i hope it happens soon, cuz im gettin sick of all this,im sick of living day to day with nothing to look forward to.whaaaatever.anyways my days.friday school.ahh.then came home .. did nothing then went to work at 4.. got called out by joe casey thansk man,left at 6:30 then went to tommy d's house with joe for like 15 min. got some alcohol, and me and joe drank a litte, then went to the football ganme. it was fun i gues. they acutally won wOOOAh. then i left with erin cait rach justine zach and allison went to erins then to friendlys. saw shaun hahahahaha. um left there n went to mark bienias. got broken up so i left with gawle goodie bird and larry. went to taco bell, then i went home. uhh then adam and jo showd up. fuckd up haha. so i let jo stay here..he left the next monring at 7 i woke up at 12 sat around, didnt end up going to work til 5. uh workd, gay. it was alrght. my manager ryan was workn n he never does anymore so yaay .ya the one who calls me dunklicker. came home then ah jo came picked me up, went to julians got like, lary, coub, nickboss, bird, gawle,goodman.went to the middle school. chelsea and dean went there aaaaw havnt talkd to chelsea in awhile.then left, brought all the kids home. me n joe went to ponys, got him and dan, came back here. did like niothing, went to taco bell, then to curran jones gfuneral home.jo pised on the plants ahahh.they ate on the steps, left al the trash there. going to helllllllllllll. uh brought dan and pony to dans went back to my house.weird. sleep.woke up.weird.umm..gota go to work at 2 . getout at 7,then hanging out with erin. fucking school tomorrow/FUCK. but guess whats friday.BIG fucking E with brittany. wanna go? . well shower then work.peace out bitches