Message to the people!
Holy Shit.... mad long since Ive updated this... lets see.... the last time I updated this.... A year and 3.5 months..... damn.... I'll fill you in on what has happened.... if I repeat things Ive written before... im sorry... I didnt read to see what Ive already covered... here we go...
01. February 2005-
-- Start of the Triangle. (The Triangle was an alliance made the night of the Semi-Formal between Jasen Osborn, Max Holy, and Yours Truely.)
-- North High Semi-Formal 2005. (This was possibly the best schooling event Ive ever attended. It was so much fun... ask about it and ill tell you what happened.)
-- Deanna Wagenrs Birthday Party. (This is the Party John and Briana met at.)
-- Every Firday night was occupied by Youth Group and Ice Skating, Bowling, Friendlys, Movies, or anything we could think of! (Id do anything to have those days back!)
02. March 2005-
-- Start of the Rhombus. (The Rhombus was an alliance that consisted of Jasen Osborn, Max Holy, Yours Truely, and Drew Kane.)
-- The Start of the Pentagon. (The Pentagon contained Yours Truely, Jasen Osborn, Max Holy, Kaitlyn Cousens, and Joy Samares.)
-- Baseball Season begins. (I played Right-feild for Junior Varsity.)
-- John Pepi and Briana Sasso start dating. (March 10 - Present)
-- More Friday nights. (Continued...)
-- Jasen Osborn and Joy Samares and Jasen Osborn start dating.(March something- the follwing day)
03. April 2005-
-- Bullshit Drama. (Between everyone.)
-- More baseball. (We sucked.)
-- Katie Cousens and Nick Keevan start dating. (April 27 - Who knows?)
-- Paulie and Joy Samares start dating. (April 19 - April 27.)
-- Drew and Roxanne break up. (I helped them trough it until they were fine again.)
-- More Friday nights. (Continued..)
-- I got so fucked up. (The highest ive ever been.)
-- Jasen Osborn gets a job and Big Y.(Ugh... attah boy.)
-- Sharaai and George. (Wow.)
-- Katie and George incident. (Slipped her the deuce.)
-- Jasen's Birthday.
-- Anthony Black's Birthday.
-- Joy Samares's Birthday.
04. May 2005-
-- Last month of Baseball. (We sucked.)
-- Drama Continued. (Depression throughout the entire school.)
-- Lauren Yokel and Nick Keevan start dating. (Until they break up.)
-- Nick Keevan and Katie Cousens start dating... again. (Until the Break up... and continued with Lauren and Katie troughout December. Now hes finally with Lauren.)
-- Final stages of the Pentagon. (Katie became a slut.)
-- Paulie and Brittany Stewart start dating. (Started on my b-day)
-- Paulie's Birthday.
05. June 2005-
-- End of school. (About time.)
-- Drama Ends. (Thank God.)
-- Roxanne and Drew end it for good. (Wow.)
-- Bink gets a job and Big Y. (Ugh... attah boy.)
-- Rich Holy gets a Job at Big y. (Ugh... attah boy.)
-- LOTS of bike riding. (Mad Fun.)
-- Alot of time spent with Karolyn, Amanda LaFlamme, Jen Brady, etc. (Alot of catch up.)
-- Max and Ant go to Ron Burton Training Village. (5 weeks.)
-- Me and Jasen spend all summer with Max and Max or just together. (Mad fun.)
06. July 2005-
-- More fun with Jasen. (Craziest shit ever.)
-- Just chillen everyday. (Nice.)
-- More Bike riding. (WOW!)
-- I dont know how to explain it all. (It was just so fun. Ask and Ill explain.)
-- Max and Ant finish up camp. (Bout time.)
-- Mad Paintballing. (Ouch.)
-- The final stages of the Rhombus. (Drew found drugs.)
-- WTF... Drew and Amanda Towle? (These two start dating.)
-- Briana's Birthday.
-- Karolyn's Birthday.
07. August 2005-
-- Paul and Brittany break up. (5/17 - 9/24)
-- Italian Festival. (Pretty Fun.)
-- Karolyn and Steven break up. (Its like my dream.)
-- Football Training. (It begins!)
-- Kristin Lizewski becomes a groupee. (Shes a cool chick.)
-- The final stages of The Triangle. (Jasen found drugs.)
-- Katie Cousens's Birthday.
-- Amanda LaFlamme's Birthday.
08. September 2005-
-- School starts. (Junior.)
-- Football. (Mad touch but fun.)
-- Lots of chillen wit Kristin. (It used to be nice.)
-- Paulie gets a job. (Ugh... attah boy.)
-- Binks's Birthday.
-- John Pepi's Birthday.
09. October 2005-
-- Work begins to suck. (Working a little.)
-- Driving school begins. (Class was fuckin insane... Jasen, Drew, Karolyn, Briana, Christina, Sharaai, Roxanne, Katie, Diony, George, Salem, and probably like 40 others.)
-- Max gets a job. (ugh... attah boy.)
-- Max quits his job. (ugh... attah boy.)
-- School dance. (Gay.)
-- Mad fun every night. (Dodododo.)
-- I was in the best shape. (Ugh... man I was fuckin deisel.)
-- Brittany's Birthday.
-- Max's Birthday.
10. November 2005-
-- I start liking a girl at work. (Stupid me.)
-- Football season ends. (Thats sucks... but releiving.)
-- Get promoted at work. (Grocery clerk.)
-- Finish Driving school. (Ugh!)
-- The Holiday Spirit begins. (I love this time of year.)
-- Drew's Brithday.
-- Amanda Towle's birthday.
11. December 2005-
-- Much fun in the winter... (Chillen with my boys.)
-- Bordum (Wrestling season so I was bored.)
-- Christmas. (It kinda suxked this year.)
-- ALOT of work. (Like 30 hours a week.)
-- Depression. (Lonely.)
-- Roxanne's Birthday.
12. January 2006-
-- Got involved with music. (Met Anthony Pepi.)
-- Kristin go bye bye! (Bitch.)
-- Classes change. (All of them with Max and/or Jasen.)
-- Football lifting starts back up. (I dont go. lol.)
-- Junior year just isnt as good as sophomore. (Its not as alive.)
-- Show at Mt. Carmel. (Eh.)
13. February 2006-
-- My attempt with Megan Courtois. (No comment.)
-- North High Semi-Foraml 2006. (Not as fun as 2005 but mad fun.)
-- Baseball training begins. (It was good.)
-- Flunk off the baseball team. (Great.)
14. March 2006-
-- Life just aint what is used to be. (I miss it.)
-- Things with Megan. (.....)
-- Meet Jamie Russo. (To think... out of all the people Ive ever known... she was the last Id think to be with.)
-- Show at Blackstone. (Fun.)
15. April 2006-
-- Paulie begin dating Jamie. (4/12 - Present.)
-- Almost quit work... but doesnt. (Like usual.)
-- Life is now at an all time shit! (At least I got a girlfriend.)
-- More music shows with A.P. (It was ok.)
-- My dad went in for surgery. (Hes alive.)
16. May 2006-
-- North High Prom 2006. ( I went with Jamie... and in the limo was, The Prom King, Anthony Black, The Prom Queen, Kelsey McSweeny, Amanda LafLamme, Max Holy, Bink, Chiara, Briana, Pepi, and Adriana, along with me and Jamie. This was probably the last fun event with my group of friends. It kinda sucks.)
-- My friends hate me because they think I gave them up for my girlfriend. (I didnt give them up... I just cant ignore my girlfriend and be with them every single second. Hopefully thing will be straight.)
-- Music show at school. (eh.)
-- Fix things with Kristin. (Eh... it happnes.)
-- Quit my job... (got it back.)
17. June 2006-
-- Living with the Pepis. (Kinda akward.)
-- Schools out. (I fail school.)
-- Weight liftin begins for me. (This sucks.)
-- Jamies.
-- Jamie's Birthday.
Well.... that is what the past 17 months of my life have been like... as you can see... everything has gone downhill... the only improvement ive made is Jamie but Im still a horrible person to all my friends for that. Oh well... fuck life... I love Jamie... weather or not she loves me back.
Its funny... I look back and read a few of my past entries... I make my self look like a bitch when I first started this whole livejournal thing... It shows that when I began living.. I stopped writing in this... and as you can see I have found time to write in it again. That just prooves ive gone down. Oh well... Hopefully life will brighten up. I aint countin on it tho.
Lately, I have sat and thought about what is wrong in my life. I have come to find out what liking someone is all about even if it means giving up a few things because in past relationships I never had to do that... but if my friends havent had the chance to understand or experience it(Which I know Bink has.)... then I guess I stay where I stand. I didnt give up my friends... I gave up a couple nights during the week... keyword... COUPLE.... if they decide that if I give up a couple than I have to give them all up... than I stand innocent as to why I dont see them anymore because there is nothin in the world I want more than to have the good old days back with my friends. But due to the fact that they want me there all the time or not at all... I cant do it... 99% of you dont know what is goin on behind the scenes with me... my family is making my life difficult, my job is screwing things up... and I have other responsibilities that Ive let take care of them selves for way to long now and of all people... I think my friends would be the ones to understand that because they were the ones trying to help me along all year... well now its kickin' in and you can think its all Jamie all you want... but to be quite blunt... Jamie doesnt even know what goin on alot of the times.... I work, I got family needs, and I got a girlfriend.... That means that my life has gone from all friends... to my friend actaully becoming part of life. In 1 year... ill probably never see anyone im with or any of my friends ever again...and Id love to make the best of this year... and I know everyone else would too... but I gotta start gettin on the ball... I need my family... I need someone to talk to besides people who just blow it off and continue like everything is ok... its ok for you but im still dealing with it.... and I need to keep myself in line because if I live this out til next year like I have been... Im gonna be screwed when its time to say good bye because Im gonna be clueless and Im gonna be depressed and I just dont want that. I apologize for who Ive hurt and what Ive done... but maybe Ill pass this and ill be back... but for now... unless you wanna give me my options that I have provided... I rest my case as to what I am gonna be doing. Ill try to stay updated here or there! I love you all and Im sorry... Bye!
~Paulie Out~
01. February 2005-
-- Start of the Triangle. (The Triangle was an alliance made the night of the Semi-Formal between Jasen Osborn, Max Holy, and Yours Truely.)
-- North High Semi-Formal 2005. (This was possibly the best schooling event Ive ever attended. It was so much fun... ask about it and ill tell you what happened.)
-- Deanna Wagenrs Birthday Party. (This is the Party John and Briana met at.)
-- Every Firday night was occupied by Youth Group and Ice Skating, Bowling, Friendlys, Movies, or anything we could think of! (Id do anything to have those days back!)
02. March 2005-
-- Start of the Rhombus. (The Rhombus was an alliance that consisted of Jasen Osborn, Max Holy, Yours Truely, and Drew Kane.)
-- The Start of the Pentagon. (The Pentagon contained Yours Truely, Jasen Osborn, Max Holy, Kaitlyn Cousens, and Joy Samares.)
-- Baseball Season begins. (I played Right-feild for Junior Varsity.)
-- John Pepi and Briana Sasso start dating. (March 10 - Present)
-- More Friday nights. (Continued...)
-- Jasen Osborn and Joy Samares and Jasen Osborn start dating.(March something- the follwing day)
03. April 2005-
-- Bullshit Drama. (Between everyone.)
-- More baseball. (We sucked.)
-- Katie Cousens and Nick Keevan start dating. (April 27 - Who knows?)
-- Paulie and Joy Samares start dating. (April 19 - April 27.)
-- Drew and Roxanne break up. (I helped them trough it until they were fine again.)
-- More Friday nights. (Continued..)
-- I got so fucked up. (The highest ive ever been.)
-- Jasen Osborn gets a job and Big Y.(Ugh... attah boy.)
-- Sharaai and George. (Wow.)
-- Katie and George incident. (Slipped her the deuce.)
-- Jasen's Birthday.
-- Anthony Black's Birthday.
-- Joy Samares's Birthday.
04. May 2005-
-- Last month of Baseball. (We sucked.)
-- Drama Continued. (Depression throughout the entire school.)
-- Lauren Yokel and Nick Keevan start dating. (Until they break up.)
-- Nick Keevan and Katie Cousens start dating... again. (Until the Break up... and continued with Lauren and Katie troughout December. Now hes finally with Lauren.)
-- Final stages of the Pentagon. (Katie became a slut.)
-- Paulie and Brittany Stewart start dating. (Started on my b-day)
-- Paulie's Birthday.
05. June 2005-
-- End of school. (About time.)
-- Drama Ends. (Thank God.)
-- Roxanne and Drew end it for good. (Wow.)
-- Bink gets a job and Big Y. (Ugh... attah boy.)
-- Rich Holy gets a Job at Big y. (Ugh... attah boy.)
-- LOTS of bike riding. (Mad Fun.)
-- Alot of time spent with Karolyn, Amanda LaFlamme, Jen Brady, etc. (Alot of catch up.)
-- Max and Ant go to Ron Burton Training Village. (5 weeks.)
-- Me and Jasen spend all summer with Max and Max or just together. (Mad fun.)
06. July 2005-
-- More fun with Jasen. (Craziest shit ever.)
-- Just chillen everyday. (Nice.)
-- More Bike riding. (WOW!)
-- I dont know how to explain it all. (It was just so fun. Ask and Ill explain.)
-- Max and Ant finish up camp. (Bout time.)
-- Mad Paintballing. (Ouch.)
-- The final stages of the Rhombus. (Drew found drugs.)
-- WTF... Drew and Amanda Towle? (These two start dating.)
-- Briana's Birthday.
-- Karolyn's Birthday.
07. August 2005-
-- Paul and Brittany break up. (5/17 - 9/24)
-- Italian Festival. (Pretty Fun.)
-- Karolyn and Steven break up. (Its like my dream.)
-- Football Training. (It begins!)
-- Kristin Lizewski becomes a groupee. (Shes a cool chick.)
-- The final stages of The Triangle. (Jasen found drugs.)
-- Katie Cousens's Birthday.
-- Amanda LaFlamme's Birthday.
08. September 2005-
-- School starts. (Junior.)
-- Football. (Mad touch but fun.)
-- Lots of chillen wit Kristin. (It used to be nice.)
-- Paulie gets a job. (Ugh... attah boy.)
-- Binks's Birthday.
-- John Pepi's Birthday.
09. October 2005-
-- Work begins to suck. (Working a little.)
-- Driving school begins. (Class was fuckin insane... Jasen, Drew, Karolyn, Briana, Christina, Sharaai, Roxanne, Katie, Diony, George, Salem, and probably like 40 others.)
-- Max gets a job. (ugh... attah boy.)
-- Max quits his job. (ugh... attah boy.)
-- School dance. (Gay.)
-- Mad fun every night. (Dodododo.)
-- I was in the best shape. (Ugh... man I was fuckin deisel.)
-- Brittany's Birthday.
-- Max's Birthday.
10. November 2005-
-- I start liking a girl at work. (Stupid me.)
-- Football season ends. (Thats sucks... but releiving.)
-- Get promoted at work. (Grocery clerk.)
-- Finish Driving school. (Ugh!)
-- The Holiday Spirit begins. (I love this time of year.)
-- Drew's Brithday.
-- Amanda Towle's birthday.
11. December 2005-
-- Much fun in the winter... (Chillen with my boys.)
-- Bordum (Wrestling season so I was bored.)
-- Christmas. (It kinda suxked this year.)
-- ALOT of work. (Like 30 hours a week.)
-- Depression. (Lonely.)
-- Roxanne's Birthday.
12. January 2006-
-- Got involved with music. (Met Anthony Pepi.)
-- Kristin go bye bye! (Bitch.)
-- Classes change. (All of them with Max and/or Jasen.)
-- Football lifting starts back up. (I dont go. lol.)
-- Junior year just isnt as good as sophomore. (Its not as alive.)
-- Show at Mt. Carmel. (Eh.)
13. February 2006-
-- My attempt with Megan Courtois. (No comment.)
-- North High Semi-Foraml 2006. (Not as fun as 2005 but mad fun.)
-- Baseball training begins. (It was good.)
-- Flunk off the baseball team. (Great.)
14. March 2006-
-- Life just aint what is used to be. (I miss it.)
-- Things with Megan. (.....)
-- Meet Jamie Russo. (To think... out of all the people Ive ever known... she was the last Id think to be with.)
-- Show at Blackstone. (Fun.)
15. April 2006-
-- Paulie begin dating Jamie. (4/12 - Present.)
-- Almost quit work... but doesnt. (Like usual.)
-- Life is now at an all time shit! (At least I got a girlfriend.)
-- More music shows with A.P. (It was ok.)
-- My dad went in for surgery. (Hes alive.)
16. May 2006-
-- North High Prom 2006. ( I went with Jamie... and in the limo was, The Prom King, Anthony Black, The Prom Queen, Kelsey McSweeny, Amanda LafLamme, Max Holy, Bink, Chiara, Briana, Pepi, and Adriana, along with me and Jamie. This was probably the last fun event with my group of friends. It kinda sucks.)
-- My friends hate me because they think I gave them up for my girlfriend. (I didnt give them up... I just cant ignore my girlfriend and be with them every single second. Hopefully thing will be straight.)
-- Music show at school. (eh.)
-- Fix things with Kristin. (Eh... it happnes.)
-- Quit my job... (got it back.)
17. June 2006-
-- Living with the Pepis. (Kinda akward.)
-- Schools out. (I fail school.)
-- Weight liftin begins for me. (This sucks.)
-- Jamies.
-- Jamie's Birthday.
Well.... that is what the past 17 months of my life have been like... as you can see... everything has gone downhill... the only improvement ive made is Jamie but Im still a horrible person to all my friends for that. Oh well... fuck life... I love Jamie... weather or not she loves me back.
Its funny... I look back and read a few of my past entries... I make my self look like a bitch when I first started this whole livejournal thing... It shows that when I began living.. I stopped writing in this... and as you can see I have found time to write in it again. That just prooves ive gone down. Oh well... Hopefully life will brighten up. I aint countin on it tho.
Lately, I have sat and thought about what is wrong in my life. I have come to find out what liking someone is all about even if it means giving up a few things because in past relationships I never had to do that... but if my friends havent had the chance to understand or experience it(Which I know Bink has.)... then I guess I stay where I stand. I didnt give up my friends... I gave up a couple nights during the week... keyword... COUPLE.... if they decide that if I give up a couple than I have to give them all up... than I stand innocent as to why I dont see them anymore because there is nothin in the world I want more than to have the good old days back with my friends. But due to the fact that they want me there all the time or not at all... I cant do it... 99% of you dont know what is goin on behind the scenes with me... my family is making my life difficult, my job is screwing things up... and I have other responsibilities that Ive let take care of them selves for way to long now and of all people... I think my friends would be the ones to understand that because they were the ones trying to help me along all year... well now its kickin' in and you can think its all Jamie all you want... but to be quite blunt... Jamie doesnt even know what goin on alot of the times.... I work, I got family needs, and I got a girlfriend.... That means that my life has gone from all friends... to my friend actaully becoming part of life. In 1 year... ill probably never see anyone im with or any of my friends ever again...and Id love to make the best of this year... and I know everyone else would too... but I gotta start gettin on the ball... I need my family... I need someone to talk to besides people who just blow it off and continue like everything is ok... its ok for you but im still dealing with it.... and I need to keep myself in line because if I live this out til next year like I have been... Im gonna be screwed when its time to say good bye because Im gonna be clueless and Im gonna be depressed and I just dont want that. I apologize for who Ive hurt and what Ive done... but maybe Ill pass this and ill be back... but for now... unless you wanna give me my options that I have provided... I rest my case as to what I am gonna be doing. Ill try to stay updated here or there! I love you all and Im sorry... Bye!
~Paulie Out~