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Wow...I went from happy....to crap....today sucked ass....I went out with jimmy and josh for a while....I had this whole plan with Cherry....and I fucken bitched out....because I was too nervous. I had this plan where I was going to ask her if she wanted to go to SlipKnot with me and then I was going to ask her out....but instead I asked her about the show and I froze right there...it sucked ass....I was kicking myself in the balls the whole way home...and I called her because it was too cold and too far to go back...besides when I called her, her ride showed up for babysitting....anyway...I called her and said I meant to ask you out yadda yadda....but then she said something like you dont ask people out on the phone...and I was like whatever....and then she left...so by the time I got to the movie theaters I was starting to hate myself because I had the chance to ask her out on Valentine's day....but I bitched out....I guess it's just cuz I haven't had a girlfriend in almost 2 years now....and every girlfriend I had...I never thought were hot....like I thought some were very attractive....but like every girl I think is hot...either says no or "has a boyfriend"...and I honestly think Cherry is hot....that's the only reason I'm asking her out but still....like I think she's mad funny and she likes the same things I do...but I've just never had a girlfriend that was madly hot....and I just thought this time would be no diffrent than any other time.....so now I'm sitting here blazed with my dumbass self....and for all of you who think I'm typing all of this for attention....you're right...in a way I am looking for attention because I feel like shit and I have nobody to say oh it'll be ok....all I have are people who say oh then she's a huge bitch...it's not her fault fuckers....I don't know where I'm going with all of this...I'm just gonna go....c yez..