crazy day
--- so yesterday was my last day of work at jcp. it was super busy + stressful + kind of bizarre. my supervisor gave me this flat goodbye in a forced monotone and it was weird. barbara- this older woman gave me a starbucks thermal mug, and a gift card to starbucks. i went home exhausted and with a migraine from my contacts.
---today i had class at 8 and it was truly a gorgeous day. i skipped my second class however because my eyes were all red and watering like crazy and i had the worst headache ever. so i went back to my apartment, and slept for literally 5 hours, then woke up feeling like death. so its pretty clear that i need an eye appointment/new glasses/different contacts and that there is definitely a problem with my eyes because this is not normal at all. so i also duck taped my broken glasses together today and its hilarious.
some things I've realized about myself recently:
when i have money, i spent it fruitlessly-not on anything I actually NEED. like contacts + glasses. instead I throw my earnings into giant + expensive presents for family (first communion presents, birthdays etc) when really half of what I get them is expected-not twice as much, dinners with friends very often, and just generally on things I don't think twice about before swiping my card. it really has to stop.
I'm becoming more focused already- w/in 24 hours of having quit my job. Everything as a whole is more accessible, plus understandable.
I really enjoy living in Albany, and being independent from my parents. But I miss my siblings and Boston entirely too much. Adventures and happiness here i think (is that doubt?) would pale in comparison to my time spent there. I am who I am from my origins and my time spent apart has me wandering aimlessly.
Its time to resolve some relationships/friendships- conversation is past due.
I love being a vegetarian and eating right and also being a feminist woman. The different aspects of who i am are somehow smoothly aligning. I've discovered my love of pumpernickel bread and the acceptance that I probably wouldn't die if I were to end up living in the country. Then I could have a garden right? Perhaps my city ways and ingrained snobbery of suburban Boston are muted more these days. Hmm..
so 2 days until my sister comes!!!! hopefully my trip to the optometrist wont be toooo depressing- I know I'm in for a hard talking too bc my eyes are in rough shape. I may actually have nightmares of protein deposits, and floaters attacking my body in the near future. iick. I hate the eye doctor- that yellow shit they put in there is horrifying. Maybe I can wear a shirt to my appointment with "I hate the eye doctor" screen printed on my chest. alright too far?
adios amigos....
---today i had class at 8 and it was truly a gorgeous day. i skipped my second class however because my eyes were all red and watering like crazy and i had the worst headache ever. so i went back to my apartment, and slept for literally 5 hours, then woke up feeling like death. so its pretty clear that i need an eye appointment/new glasses/different contacts and that there is definitely a problem with my eyes because this is not normal at all. so i also duck taped my broken glasses together today and its hilarious.
some things I've realized about myself recently:
when i have money, i spent it fruitlessly-not on anything I actually NEED. like contacts + glasses. instead I throw my earnings into giant + expensive presents for family (first communion presents, birthdays etc) when really half of what I get them is expected-not twice as much, dinners with friends very often, and just generally on things I don't think twice about before swiping my card. it really has to stop.
I'm becoming more focused already- w/in 24 hours of having quit my job. Everything as a whole is more accessible, plus understandable.
I really enjoy living in Albany, and being independent from my parents. But I miss my siblings and Boston entirely too much. Adventures and happiness here i think (is that doubt?) would pale in comparison to my time spent there. I am who I am from my origins and my time spent apart has me wandering aimlessly.
Its time to resolve some relationships/friendships- conversation is past due.
I love being a vegetarian and eating right and also being a feminist woman. The different aspects of who i am are somehow smoothly aligning. I've discovered my love of pumpernickel bread and the acceptance that I probably wouldn't die if I were to end up living in the country. Then I could have a garden right? Perhaps my city ways and ingrained snobbery of suburban Boston are muted more these days. Hmm..
so 2 days until my sister comes!!!! hopefully my trip to the optometrist wont be toooo depressing- I know I'm in for a hard talking too bc my eyes are in rough shape. I may actually have nightmares of protein deposits, and floaters attacking my body in the near future. iick. I hate the eye doctor- that yellow shit they put in there is horrifying. Maybe I can wear a shirt to my appointment with "I hate the eye doctor" screen printed on my chest. alright too far?
adios amigos....